LSS OF THE DAY: "DREAM BIG"
By: David Cook

So, yeah, Dagupan's under a "state of calamity".





Last Saturday, May 17, 2008, we were in my room since the blackout occurred around 3 in the afternoon and the wind was already howling. By seven in the evening, our house was already leaking and the sounds of things being blown around were still evident amid the gale outside.





By ten in the evening, the winds died down a bit, but the rain was pouring HARD.





Everything was quiet by two in the morning.





We were up and about by five, surveying the damage that dear old Cosme was nice enough to leave us; just to remember him by, I suppose. Two of our kalachuchi trees, which Patsy really, really loved, fell; one whose branch completely tore off, and the other uprooted. The backyard was like a swamp, complete with littered leaves everywhere and even a few broken branches from the duhat trees. A part of the wall that separated our house from the neighbor's, partly made of yero and wood, tore off.





My Dad said that you wouldn't think that a storm passed through the night before, because it was already sunny and pretty hot the day after the storm. Without all the debris lying around, of course.






When we went around the city, the damage was even worse. Billboards were already leaning against the buildings, glass shards on the street from broken windows, walls completely torn in two because of fallen trees, electric posts and wires dangling on the side of the street, branches being held up by electric wires, wooden signs blasted apart; scary, really. We took pictures and a video detailing the damage in both our houses in Tapuac and Bonuan but I can't upload them right now.





And the worst part is, we don't have electricity and water. They said it will probably take a week, but others are saying that it might take longer because the damage was worse than the last strong typhoon that hit Dagupan. We're praying that they'll stay true to the first one.





Of course, we didn't want to stay in a place with no electricity and water; the mosquitos are enough reason for us to scram. So me and Patsy left for Manila on Monday, May 19. And we're still here! Dad and our brother, Ramon, just got here last night. We were in Anitpolo last night and we just arrived in Fairview this morning. We'll be going back to Dagupan tomorrow.




So, we ran away from our cave, to civilization.




We've been enjoying ourselves so far. We've been to Lea Salonga's dress rehearsal! Could you believe that? More details soon, I promise.











*drumroll*

DAVID COOK!

Group performance by this year's top 12. I just had to put it here coz I love this bunch.

To my fellow die-hard David Cook fans, LET'S CELEBRATE!

Labels: American Idol, family, MANILA TRIP, storm

LSS OF THE DAY: "HERE'S WHERE I STAND"
From: CAMP [Movie]

I was in Manila from May 1 to May 10. I had the greatest time, ever! I'll just say what I did during my stay and something more afterwards..







MAY 1 - Went to Manila with my cousin Erika, who arrived from the US a few days before. We almost didn't make it because she wasn't feeling very well. But she sucked it all in and endured the painful five-hour bus ride from Dagupan to Cubao; I even bought with me a lot of plastic bags in case she wanted to throw up. Once there, our cousin, Maui, picked us up from the terminal and we headed to her house in Fairview. Took a nap because we were so exhausted; Erika because she was sick, and me because I only had about two hours of sleep in the past twenty-four hours or so. Once we were okay, we went to the Podium (my first time to go there, ever) and watched Ironman; LOVED IT. Then we had dinner in Burgoo before going back to Maui's condo in Gilmore where we spent the night.







MAY 2 - Erika and I went to Fairview after breakfast, where we went shopping with Tita Marissa in SM. Then we met up with our cousins, Lean (pronounced as Lee-an; his full name is Leandro) and Enzo at Shoppersville; we said goodbye to Tita Marissa and went with the boys. On the car ride going to EDSA Shangri-La to meet up with their brother Carl, his wife, Audrey and their daughter, Bella, the boys gave me a new name: EMO GIRL. They wouldn't stop! Then we had a quick snack there before going to Antipolo, where they lived. Erika slept early but I stayed up watching the Southpark movie with Enzo and Carl.







MAY 3 - I was supposed to go home since Erika had to stay with her Dad but Tito Rudi and Tita Livy told me to stay because my cousins from Davao were arriving the next day. Once we dropped off Erika at the Fort, we went back to Antipolo.







MAY 4 - I watched Ironman, again, with Lean (he already saw it as well), Audrey and Enzo. I remember that Enzo refused to leave because he wanted to make sure that there weren't any last-minute scenes after the credits. So we waited, and sure enough, there was a scene after the credits. He wouldn't stop gloating about it after we left the theater :P Later that night, me, Lean and Enzo just sat around the TV and sang some songs while they took turns in playing the guitar; "jamming", if you will. Tita Astrid, Nina and Andrea arrived past midnight and we ended up staying awake until two in the morning.







MAY 5 - Since we were craving for burgers, we decided to go to Burger King and we asked Enzo if he wanted to come along. He said it was too near and it would be such a waste of time if he was just going to prepare himself for that. I compromised and told him that we can always go to Trinoma since there was a Burger King there. That got him. But when we arrived, the place was full so we decided to wait for some people to leave. We just stood outside, talking and joking and all of us could feel the stares that the other customers were giving us which only made us laugh harder. We noticed that some of them weren't even eating anymore and yet they still didn't want to stand up. After a while, we admitted defeat and left; but as soon as we turned our backs, the people we were waiting for stood up and left. By the time we looked back, someone else had already taken the table. So we ate at Brothers Burger instead; at least we still had burgers.
Then we went to Timezone; we even went on those bump-car thingys with guns that didn't even work! :D And we went on the carousel, too. Then we went to Dairy Queen for a really late dessert; we went back home after that. Lean and Enzo barged into my room that night since they saw that my light was open. Had a heart-to-heart talk with them.







MAY 6 - I stayed at home while the Davao girls went to the US Embassy for their interviews to get a Visa. Bonded with the guys again.







MAY 7 - Me and Nina accompanied Andrea and Tita Astrid to the airport because they had to go back to Davao; Nina had to stay behind so she could arrange her leave of absence from UP. Went to the Fort to kill time; ate in Krispy Kremes . After we dropped them off, Kuya Aga took me and Nina to Glorietta, where we went crazy at Powerbooks and splurged on Burger King, again. Then we walked over to Greenbelt and ate Haagen Daas. Walked some more; about six hours of walking :) We were on a mission to find Lean a birthday gift but had such a hard time that we settled for those big cards that they sold at Powebooks. Then we had a quick snack at Chowking and Juice Avenue. Nina and I ordered siomai from Chowking; but after we poured the soy sauce, we realized that it didn't taste right after we took a bite. Turns out, it was the sauce for the siopao. My tummy was complaining about the weird combination but I ate them all anyway; and that's when Juice Avenue came in. And this was the day that I bought Twilight.
When we got back to Antipolo, we got to work on Lean's gift. Nina had these colored charcoal thingys that you can smudge after you drew on a piece of paper. While we were designing the card, Lean poked his head through the door because he was looking for me. We threw nervous glances at each other and I saw that Nina was itching to push him away but he just said, "You guys are drawing?", to which I answered, "Yeah, because we've got nothing to do", and thank goodness he left it at that. We planned to give it to him at midnight so we rushed it. But while we were watching the replay of American Idol (we got back home around 9 so we missed it), about ten minutes before midnight, Lean went to bed. So we decided to give it to him in the morning.







MAY 8 - I was having a nightmare; I can't remember what it was about though. But I do remember someone touching my shoulder and I jerked awake, only to find Lean's shocked face from behind me. It was a miracle that I remembered what day it was, despite being a bit disoriented from the shock; I greeted him a "Happy Birthday" and gave him the card; I heard Nina's incoherent greeting from beside me; looks like I wasn't the only one. He read it while we were still lying in bed and laughed at some of the stuff we wrote. We texted our other cousins the night before to tell us what they wanted to say to Lean and we wrote them down. He thanked us and told us that we were supposed to leave for UP to finish up whatever Nina needed to finish. Lean's girlfriend, Erika, was there when we went downstairs. We ate as quickly as we could.
We were dropped off at UP and for the next two hours, more or less, we walked around the campus to find the people who needed to sign Nina's papers. Then we went to Trinoma for lunch at Taco Bell; and too cool off there as well. All that walking tired us out and it made us sweat so badly. Went back to UP and waited for Kuya Aga to pick us up. Big dinner at home. And it was the same night that I started the Oviedo group here on Multiply. And I think I finshed reading Twilight around this time too.







MAY 9 - Once again, we went back to UP, had a few problems with the papers but were quickly resolved thanks to Tita Astrid. When we were done, we went back to Trinoma, where I bought New Moon, the sequel to Twilight, then we crossed over to the Block where we looked around and ate at Wham Burger, then back to Trinoma for more walking and looking before Carl and Kuya Aga took us home.
The guys made me and Nina watch the Southpark movie again :P
It was already four in the morning but I still couldn't sleep. And since I didn't want to wake Nina, I used the light from my cell phone to read New Moon until five thirty.







MAY 10 - We woke up a little later than we planned so we were in such a hurry to pack our stuff and eat breakfast. When it was time for us to go, we had to wake up the boys to say goodbye; Lean and Enzo just mumbled and Carl wouldn't budge. Audrey was in the bathroom so we weren't able to say goodbye properly. Even Bella was still shy around us! But Tito Rudi and Tita Livy were there when we left so it was okay.
In the van, Nina and I talked non-stop. We took her to the airport first before Kuya Aga took me to the bus station


And so my Manila adventure ends there.







During my stay, I learned/realized/noticed a few things about myself, my family, my sorroundings and others. These are just some of them:

*I may look like a turtle with the amount of things that I stuffed in my bagpack, but someone once told me that I look like a cute turtle.

*I laugh easily.

*We may be cousins, but there are times when I feel like we're complete strangers.

*I space out more than I should.

*I still say "sorry" if I bump into someone, even though I know that there's a big chance that they won't notice me.

*Once I get an idea, I'll keep building on it and I wouldn't let it go.

*I keep on saying "Hay naku" instead of "whatever".

*My heart melts when I see kids holding hands with their grandparents.

*I like to take lots of pictures even if I really don't have to.

*I do have a life without the internet.

*It takes four years to build a wall, but only a few seconds to tear it down.

*The smog from Manila is unbelievably incredible--in a scary way.

*Even when I have so many things to distract me, there's always that one person who never fails to cross my mind. *sigh*

*I'm gonna need a new g-tech.

*I know a lot of songs, but I haven't memorized them all.

*Mexican music makes me jumpy.

*I could never say "no" to anything sweet.

*You look outside, it's sunny; but later on you'll hear the thunder rolling so loudly you'd think that it was right above you. No rain, too. Strange, but it's a natural occurrence in that area.

*I may look cool on the outside, but I'm really giddy on the inside.

*I blush very easily.

*Overpacking has more advantages than disadvantages.

*Riding the carousel with my cousins brings back so many memories.

*I cringe when people call me "Luisa" instead of "Lui".

*Coming up with boys names that will match with "James" is fun; the possibilities are endless ;) One of my cousins said, James Chewbacca. Makes me laugh everytime.

*The cool night breeze of Antipolo soothes me.

*I'm more emo than I thought I was.

*I wake up if someone touches me.

*I always use alcohol after I touch money.

*There's always that nagging voice on the back of my head, reminding me that if I arrived in Manila carrying only two bags, I'd better go back home with just two bags also. No more, no less. I have no idea why.

*I'm stubborn. Enough said.

*No matter what I do, I can't stop myself from repeating RENT when I listen to Tony.

*Strange as it may sound, I want to have my own baby right now. Maybe it's because I get envious of what I see between mothers and their children; to show them love and be loved in return. But of course, it's too early to be thinking of that.

*Nina and I could be mistaken for sisters sometimes.

*I don't get sleepy that easily.

*When I get so absorbed in a book, I won't notice that I'm hungry, thirsty or even if I want to go to the bathroom :P And I read really quickly because I want to know how it's gonna end.

*Maroon looks good on me.

*Edward Cullen, a character from Twlight, reminds me so much of HIM; not in a physical way. Well, not just Edward, but almost all the vampires. PM me if you want to know why. I'ts kind of embarassing.

*I think too much.

*When me, Nina, Andrea and Enzo were in Trinoma, I was thinking of possible titles for the album where I was gonna put our pictures in so I started scrambling the first letters of our names. To my surprise, I discovered that we formed "LEAN", who just happened to be Enzo's older brother, who unfortunately wasn't able to go with us at the time. So, in a way, he was with us because of that.

*..and yeah, I like making new names.

*They weren't kidding when they said that the campus of UP was HUGE. I never dreamed that I'd be taking a jeep around there. To aspiring future UPCAT-passers, always bring rubber shoes with you, just in case. Nina said there are times when you really have to run to get to your next class.

*I can survive without texting anyone or anyone texting me.

*Never leave me in a bookstore unless you keep my wallet away from me.

*I must have been really thin a few years ago for people to think that I've gained so much weight now.

*I always bring a big bag with me because it has everything I need. And my cousins dubbed it as "The Mother Bag".

*Whenever we go out, I'm always the shortest.

*I like to ask the same questions even if I already know the answer.






I think that's about it. I've probably bored you enough already. Hahaha!






I took lots of pictures and they're on my Multiply. But for you to see them, you have to be my contact.






I made an Oviedo group on Multiply, too. meetdaoviedorks.multiply.com
It was Enzo's idea. And you have to be an Oviedo to join and view the page.






I watched CAMP, a movie about these kids who go to camp to learn how to sing and act, like in Broadway. The songs are great! And Daniel Letterle, one of the guys in the movie, is absolutely cute!

How cute is he?

The other posters are too big.





I uploaded some of my favorite songs on my Multiply. It's open to everybody so feel free to download them. My favorites so far are "How Can I See You Through My Tears", "Here's Where I Stand" and "Century Plant". Try them out.

Labels: family, MANILA TRIP, pictures

LSS OF THE DAY: "WITHOUT YOU"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

Dear lord, I'm exhausted.






Last Saturday, I didn't go home. So yeah, I was stuck in my cave (dorm).






And last Sunday, I had to attend this thing for LTS; okay, it was a Mass and sort of like a closing program but I found it to be dull. And what was worse was that the NSTP coordinator told us off for being noisy, TWICE! That was so humiliating. And to think, we're in college and yet we still act like a bunch of pre-schoolers. Oh well. We stayed in school until 8pm. As always, we played frisbee even though it was pretty dark. Lots of one-on-one moments that I'll never forget.






Sarah and Mau broke up; but I think they're together again. Or is it just my imagination?






My ninang from the States called me yesterday just to check on how I was doing. I was really touched when she told me that she misses me. She's one of those old people who knows how to relate to today's generation, since she has two kids who are just a few years older than me. She told me stories about her younger days, when she and my tito weren't married yet. Their courtship, how they were able to handle their break-up and still remained close, and how he proposed. Needless to say, it was nakakakilig; and coming from her, that's saying a lot! I told her about my current "situation" with--well, you know who; she told me some stuff and I'd rather not say them here. Ssssshhh! I can't wait for her to call again.






And I am very pleased to say that as of yesterday, I have a son! Not biological, of course. Remember our family tree? Iris is my "mom", Meg and Janel are my "daughters", Sarah's our "dog", Gian's my "sister", Albert's my "brother-in-law", Simon's my "stepfather"; we don't have positions for Judith, Claudette and Jigo yet, and now Jay (Albert's friend, who's been hanging out with us) is now my "son". Me, Meg, Albert and Jay stayed in school until seven last night in Lovers Lane. Just talking. Meg even took a video of Jay and his inability to do the steps that Jigo did last week; now I have something to laugh at when I'm depressed. No offense, Jay; love yah, m'boy!






And tomorrow's gonna be a busy day for us.

MARCH 12, 2008 (Wednesday)

8:00 - 9:00 -> Meet up at the Pav for Stat
9:00 - 12:00 -> Debate drill
12:00 - 3:00 -> CLASSES
3:00 - 4:00 -> Exam in Theology (should have been today but she didn't show up)

*and some time between 4:00-7:00 we have to take a quiz in Bio through E-Leap AND attend the election of officers for BESSCIFED.

Is that busy, or is that busy?






Which reminds me, I have to write down all that stuff that Meg told me for the debate. I volunteered to replace Judith since she really wasn't into it. At least I made someone's day.






I'm beginning to notice something. But I wouldn't want to sound hasty or anything, so I'll just sit back and watch how everything will turn out.






I saw him awhile ago in front of our building, while I was talking to Albert. I hate it when I get shivers down my spine everytime I see him. I am so weak. Pathetic, really.

"If he doesn't make a move, forget about him" - my friends.

But the thing is, I'm already trying. Why isn't it working?

Labels: BesFed, crap, decisions, depression and tears, emotions, exhaustion, family, love thing, relapse, reminders, RENT, revelations, schedules, school, school woes

LSS OF THE DAY: "TANGO: MAUREEN"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

I listened to that the whole day yesterday; I really couldn't get enough of Joanne's beautiful voice.





I'm in the school library coz I'm saving on money.





I went to Baguio with ym relatives on Sunday and I just got back yesterday. The trip wasn't that long which surprised me a bit. It was like traveling from Dagupan to Manila; it didn't feel like we were coming from Baguio. I rode with Tito Jarius, Ate Menia and Kuya Abner since everyone else was left behind. Dad, Pats and Mon went straight to Dagupan, while Tita Marissa, Tita Melanie, Tita Inday, Tito Jim, Tita Vanessa, Tito John, Ally and Lauren followed around before lunch. I could have stayed with them but I think my Dad was concerned that I might get to the dorm late.





Had a lot of fun. It was sooooooooooooooooooooooooo cold! I was already wearing pajamas, a long-sleeved shirt and socks but I was still shivering when I woke up. And it got even colder when I went upstairs for breakfast.





All my relatives (except for Tito Jarius and Tita Marissa) came from the States so I guess they're used to the cold.





I went to DS on Saturday. I missed talking to my friends there. Watched their field demo. I had a moment of weakness while I was filming it and I'd rather not mention it here 'coz I know someone will make fun of me for it. Ms. Manaois even talked me into riding the ferris wheel with her. I got a little dizzy after that since I wasn't really used to riding that thing. Nico had to drag me inside just to sit down so I could regain my equillibrium.






And speaking of Nico, I'm glad I have a friend like him. He's really nice and he makes me laugh. He's, in a word, malambing also. He likes to hold my hand in a very "sisterly-brotherly" way, since I do consider him as one of my "younger siblings" in school; and besides, I was classmates with is older brother in high school so that kinda makes our ties a bit stronger than the rest. Although some people thought that we were an "item" *cough*Chad!*cough*, we're just enjoying each other's company.





When Romeo came in with his family, he nudged me and told me that "there's your mother-in-law, sisters-in-law and brother-in-law"; even Jude (Romeo's brother) nudged him too, but I ignored them. There's nothing to say anyway.






I haven't made my lesson plan yet! I am in sooooooooooooooooo much trouble!







Well, I have to go. My classes start in thirty minutes.






'Til later, love!

Labels: family, friends, friends and laughter, past love and new hate, relapse, RENT, school, school woes

LSS OF THE DAY: "OUT TONIGHT"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

It's been too long. And I'm sorry I can't do smileys.






It's been a hectic week; our preliminary examinations just finished in Friday and we are so drained. I don't think I did well in some of my tests because, well, I didn't feel like studying for them. Sure, it's normal for me to be lazy, but this is different. I dunno. Maybe I'm just not interested in my subjects now; I find Statistics immensely boring, I find Biology a complete waste of time and I even find English dull; I know, I always loved English. But I so don't like my professor there. What the *beep* is going on?!







So anyway, after our last exam on Friday (Biology), me, Meg, Sarah, Mau, Albert and Jigo went to Trinoma to unwind. On the way there, it was a non-stop laughfest in the car. It seemed to me that everybody was dying to release all that pent-up tension because of the exams. We went to Red Box and did karaoke. Sarah recorded us singing "Out Tonight" from RENT; it's on my Multiply so feel free to check it out. I had so much fun with those guys!






I went straight to Fairview after we left Trinoma. This morning, well yesterday morning, Maui and I went to Galleria to look for a dress that I could wear for our cousin's wedding. We had to look through a few shops before we found the perfect one. I'll post the picture when I get the chance. Then we bought shoes that'll match with it. We met up with Tito Jarius and Tita Marissa i Maui's condo before we headed out to Greenbelt to watch a play, "Tuesdays with Morrie". I was a bit worried that they might not do the book justice, and I love that book. But after watching it, I had tears in my eyes. They made it so well and the actors, Jose Marie Avellana as Morrie and Bart Guingona as Mitch Albom, were absolutely fantastic.






We went to Rustan's after because we had to buy our cousin's wedding gift. On our way there, Tito Jarius got a call from their driver saying that there was an accident at home. One of the workers who was doing the renovation on the deck on the second floor, got electrecuted. He was holding an aluminum bar when he got sucked up by the wires because of the electrical charge or something. He actually spun in mid-air before falling to the ground. He was rushed to the hospital. He's okay now. But according to them, his burns look horrible; third-degree burns. Ouch.






Thank goodness he survived. I consider that as a miracle.






I wish I could say more, but unfortunately, it's pretty late and I have to get up early in the morning.







Catch yah later, love!

Labels: family, friends and laughter, hold up

LSS OF THE DAY: "WILL I"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

It has been awhile..and I miss updating. And I CAN'T use smileys. Really, really sad.





I'm in Antipolo right now, with my relatives. My cousin, Nina, and I met up in Jollibee Philcoa yesterday since we both didn't know how to get here by commuting so we asked Kuya Aga (our tito's driver) to pick us up from there. And our cute little niece, Isabella, has been keeping us busy; we've been playing with her non-stop last night.




Wait...I have a lot more to say but I gotta go coz Isabella's been bugging me to play with them for awhile and I don't want to disappoint her.





Catch yah later, love!

Labels: family, relapse, RENT

LSS OF THE DAY: "GOODBYE LOVE"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

New Year, yes, but same old habits





I'll pick up from where I left off; the Baguio trip. It was a lot of fun! Went horseback riding, bike riding and boat riding in the rain. My sister actually talked to her horse! My horses' name was Spirit





Skip to New Year's Eve: baked cookies! Just check out my Multiply. My cousin Andrea and I didn't sleep at all. Until now my head is still aching due to lack of sleep.





I just finished reading "The Golden Compass" by Philip Pullman; it's quite nice. I'm reading the second book now.





I know, not very helpful, but I'm feeling a little depressed since school starts tomorrow; I know, who starts school on a Thursday? It's completely ridiculous!





So....I gotta go pack.





Bye for now, love!

Labels: books, family, holidays, RENT, school, shitty

Your eyes
As we said our goodbyes
Can't get them out of my mind
And I find I can't hide from
Your eyes
The ones that took me by surprise
The night you came into my life
Where there's moonlight
I see your eyes

How'd I let you slip away
When I'm longing so to hold you
Now I'd die for one more day
'Cause there's something I should
Have told you
Yes there's something I should have
Told you

When I looked into your eyes
Why does distance make us wise?
You were the song all along
And before the song dies

I should tell you, I should tell you
I have always loved you
You can see it in my eyes

-Adam Pascal, "Your Eyes", RENT

I saw him this afternoon; I felt my knees got weak and I felt slightly light-headed. I shouldn't even be feeling that way; I hate it when he still has the power to make me feel weak. We actually had a short chat and I noticed that he looked at me in a funny way; it took me awhile to realize that he was looking at me the same way he did when he was on the verge of saying that he..well, loved me. Or if he didn't want to say it verbally, he always gave me that look that was enough to make me understand what it was he wanted to say. At first I thought that I was just imagining it, but that wasn't the case. I knew that he knew that he was looking at me that way, and he wasn't stopping himself. But, why didn't he, though?





I have some serious issues to sort out. Here we go again..





Going to Baguio tomorrow with Tito Adel, Nina, Andrea, Pats and Mon. Dad couldn't make it 'coz he's got work. Oh well.





Watch this video! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Fe11OlMiz8





Bye for now, love!

Labels: ADAM LOVE, family, love thing, RENT, videos

LSS OF THE DAY: "I'LL COVER YOU"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

The year's almost over; and to think that I should be over this by now, right? WRONG





Before I start to break down and bawl my eyes out, let me tell you guys about our Paskuhan since I didn't say anything about it. On that morning, December 19, upon waking up, the first thing that I said was, "OUCH"; why? Well, it was my first day of "that girl thing" and it hurt like hell! I couldn't move for the next thirty minutes or so, I just laid there on the top-bunk of our double-decker bed and fought the urge to scream my ass off. When I finally got down, I took a long bath and left to withdraw money from the bank before meeting up with my friends.





I got some bad news: Grizzly Bear couldn't make it. Oh well.





Once we were all there, we exchanged gifts and took pictures; as night fell, we watched the fireworks, grabbed some stuff to eat, sat on the grass in the field, watched Parokya Ni Edgar as they played; stuff like that.





There are a few things that I learned that night:

• When two of your friends are drunk, keep your distance or they'll breathe you to death;
  
• Never leave anyone out, even if they're busy doing something else; always ask if they could come;
  
• Don't wear too low-cut shirts;
  
• Don't wear bright-colored shirts if you know that your gonna sweat a lot;
  
• Bring a trashbag;
  
• Bring lots of extra cash;
  
• SLEEP AS MUCH AS YOU CAN THE DAY BEFORE SAID EVENT.
  

Yeah, two of my friends had I-S-S-U-E-S that day and they seriously need to sort them out by next year. They reeked of alcohol when they met up with us and it was disgusting.





And yes, we used trash bags to lie down on the grass since it was so...soily? Wait, is that even a word? Anyway, we sat there, as Parokya Ni Edgar played. It was almost midnight when we went home.





I went to Dagupan the next day.





I finally have the sheet music of "RENT" and "WICKED"; thanks Tita Beth!. Now all I need is a piano..





I got a henna tattoo! Just check it out on my Multiply.





On the 22nd, me and my family went to Manila to spend Christmas with our relatives in Fairview. Our relatives from Davao got there before us and there was a lot of greetings flying back and forth. That night, we watched this show called "The Wanders" in PAGCOR; it was amazing! All the stunts, the cute Chinese guys, the costumes, the cute Chinese guys, the songs, the cute Chinese guys and, oh yeah, the cute Chinese guys. I swear, my mouth was open through the entire show.





The next day, after hearing Mass, we played a game called "Cranium" which is sort of like a mixture of charades, trivia, drawing, clay-molding and a lot more stuff and it was really fun. Then at night we went to Trinoma, where we splurged on books, ate at Conggo Grille, and splurged again on TimeZone.





On Christmas Eve, our cousins from Antipolo came over for lunch and we had a game of Cranium, again. Had lots of fun, as always. We had a great dinner that night, then we opened our gifts and played games before hearing Mass. When we got back, we did a little bit of "witchcraft": runes, tarot cards; and as strange as it may sound, the runes and tarot cards that I got were--well--accurate to what I was feeling at the time. I won't say what they read, but let me just say that I was a bit freaked out.





And this morning, my family and the people from Davao went back to Dagupan..and here we are!





I had a great Christmas; I can't wait for next year





But sadly, my happiness isn't meant to last for long...





I know I shouldn't care. I know I should be getting over him; but no matter how hard I try, I just can't. It's like he's got this really firm grip on me that makes it hard for me to breathe. I was talking to him the other day and I asked him, just in passing, if he liked someone else; when he said that he might be starting to like someone else, I think my heart shirveled and burnt itself. I fought back the tears that threatened to fall even if I wanted to let it out so badly. I kept on thinking to myself, "You shouldn't care..you shouldn't care..". I wish I could say that it helped, but I would be lying to myself if I did.






After all this time, when I thought that I have started to move on, I crash back to where I started. I want to get over him so badly; I want this pain to end. This is so infuriating.






She's right; I'm trash. I don't deserve to be happy. Thank you for pointing that out; I needed a reality check.

With you my heart will always stay. With you my thoughts will be every day. You remain to be the one that I regret letting get away. Why didn't I say what I needed to say? You are the one I will always use my wishes on. You are the one I will always wish was never gone. I'll constantly wonder what went wrong. I'll forever think of what I could've did that was never done.

I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most.

I hate you...and then I love you...it's like I want to throw you off a cliff....then rush to the bottom to catch you



Even if my heart should call out your name in the rain. Even if these arms should want to embrace you again. And even if I’m all cried out and no longer in pain... I’ll never fall in love that way again.

You said you couldnt stand to see my heart broken
... so when you broke it, did you close your eyes?

Try not to wonder about what might have been, ‘cause that was then and we have taken different roads. We can’t go back again, there’s no use giving in. And there’s no way to know, what might have been.

Loving is so short and forgetting so long.

Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime

I wish I never said good bye... I wish I never let it die... but I did, and now all I want to do is cry

Things just keep getting better and better, eh?





Well, now it's time for me to lock myself up in my room, and cry my eyes out.





But before I leave:

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Alright, now that that's over with..





See you later, love.

Labels: crap, depression and tears, family, friends, friends and laughter, love thing, relapse, RENT, school

LSS OF THE DAY: "YOU'LL THINK OF ME" BY KEITH URBAN

I don't know why, but I'm getting hooked on Country music all over again. But I like it


Well, I went to DS yesterday. I saw a lot of my old friends and it's so nice that they still rememeber me even when they're a bit or way younger than me. It felt so good to see them again.


As I walked down the newly-cemented and raised pathway, memories started flooding my mnid. I'd rememeber that there was this one spot by the circle of St. Dominic where me and my friends love to sit and chat after class; the spot where I first started chasing this one classmate of mine because he pulled my ponytail; the spot where I got hurt by my classmate and got sent to the Directress' office; everything came rushing back to me. It was so overwhelming. And seeing tohse faces that I left behind. it almost became too much for me; luckily, I had Kathleen and Louise beside me then. Everything was going okay.


Until HE showed up.


Shit.


I knew that he was looking at me. I knew that he wanted me to look back at him; but I didn't. I ignored his stare. I ignored him. He even approached me from where I was standing and started talking to me; I only half-listened to the stuff he was saying. I was pretending on being so engrossed in the latest issue of the school paper. But he wouldn't take a hint! He kept on talking, and talking and talking. From time to time I would look up at him, just to show that I wasn't the broken girl that he dumped for some crappy "reason". When he left, I breathed a sigh of relief. Thank goodness.


By the way, Denise, I know he's a bastard because HE WAS BORN THAT WAY.


I talked to Ms. Manaois and had a quick chat with sister Althea and a couple of my other friends. It started to rain so I stayed there until it stopped. I hung out in the guard house and parents' waiting shed while talking to some people. I found out a lot of juicy stuff from our conversations. I even got a lot of good comments about my hair. Although a lot of people did notice that I gained weight, I didn't mind


I went home and my Mom picked us up so we could sleep over in Bonuan since Dad's not here.


I found out just this morning that I'm gonna go to Manila tomorrow. And I haven't even started packing yet!. Trust Mom to change my plans.


So, I went out with some of my high school classmates and tried to enjoy what was left of my stay here in Dagupan. We talked, ate; then ate and talked; you know, the usual


Then we ate in Gerry's Grill for dinner because one of my titas from the States just came home. I even saw on of the customers who looked a little bit like the lead singer of the band, Hale. Champ. So handsome

PICTURE TIME IN GERRY'S GRILL!!





IT DRIZZLED EARLIER. MY BROTHER SAW IT FIRST.



ME AND MY SISTER, PATSY. WHILE WAITING FOR THE FOOD.



OUR GUEST OF HONOR, NINANG JOY



BEST FRIENDS; NINANG JOY, MOM AND TITA MARIE



I KNOW THAT I CAN TURN RED ONCE IN AWHILE, BUT THIS TAKES IT TO A WHOLE NEW LEVEL



THE KIDS MESSING WITH TONY



BLUE MARGARITA



ALRIGHT!



ME AND MY COUSIN, HANS



ALL OF US KIDS *ahem!* WITH NINANG JOY


MORE HERE: http://lauredilian.multiply.com/photos/album/45

I rememeber last year, the day before I left for Manila, I cried the moment I woke up. Because I was so sad that I was going to leave everything behind and start anew; and scared because I didn't want to be alone. And now, I didn't cry; maybe because of the sudden change of plan? That may be one reason. Another reason may be because I'm getting used to it already; being away from home most of the time, I mean. I'm not even sure if I'm gonna come home on some weekeneds because I now have something to do on Sundays. But they said that its just computer work for the first semester.


I'm not excited about going back to school. The reason? My classmates; they'll be like, "Oh, I missed you!" and stuff like that then they'll go back to ignoring you like before. I just wish that they would shut their mouth instead of saying things that they don't really mean.


I might not be blogging for awhile. But I'll try when I've got time. I'm gonna miss going on the internet for hours on end. And I'm really gonna miss home.


'Til next time everybody!

Labels: country love, family, memories, past love and new hate, school

LSS OF THE DAY: "I NEED TO KNOW" PERFORMED BY BLAKE LEWIS

Don't ask.



We just came back from Manila a few hours ago. We arrived there last night and we stayed at my cousin's condo in Gilmore; really swanky. Spent the whole night talking, watching T.V. and eating popcorn. Then I showed my cousin some the videos I downloaded on Tony; we loved watching "The Landlord" and scenes from "Who's Line Is It Anyway?". We stayed up pretty late but we were used to it; I wish I could go to those places someday, especially Rome.



We left her condo around past or before 9 and we headed straight to UST so we could drop off some of my stuff in the dorm. It's on Dapitan street now; my former dorm was in Lacson. I know that my Dad and my sister didn't like it very much, but I did; I'm the one staying there, not them. And besides, he should be thankful that I found a cheap dorm instead of the other oh-so-expensive ones that look like hotels; one of my cousins is staying in one of those, and he became too lazy to even go to school. And the street where I'm staying in now is closer to my building and the library. While we were there, my borther started crying! Apparently, he thought that I was going to stay there for the rest of the summer and not come home anymore; and he found out that I won't be coming home on weekends and that I won't be home for his birthday in June, so we was pretty upset about it. I'm really gonna miss him when I get back to Manila.



After we unloaded my stuff, we went to this other dorm which was really nice but the price was ridicuously high and there were no more available slots. So, we went to SM San Lazaro because my Dad wanted to buy new shoes. Me, my sister and my brother stayed in Starbucks while he did his "shoe-hunting".

THEY SPELLED MY NAME WRONG!!!





THIS WAS IN THEIR BATHROOM. IT SAYS THAT YOU HAVE TO WASH, RINSE AND DRY YOUR HANDS BEFORE YOU CAN TURN OFF THE WATER. WHAT THE?!

But the people there were nice.



Then we went to Fairview to my Tita Marissa's house to get one of her puppies. Her dog, Pepper, gave birth on APRIL 12, so me and the puppies have the same birthday!. They're MAJOR dog-lovers.

WE GOT ONE OF THESE PUPPIES. SO CUTE!!




THIS IS MY COUSIN'S DOG, HILARY. SHE'S HALF-PEKINGESE AND HALF-DASCHUND.




ANOTHER ONE OF THIER PUPPIES, BUT NOT FROM THE SAME MOTHER(?).




MY COUSIN, MAUI AND HER MOM, TITA MARISSA

We decided to name the puppy, Roxy. Cute, huh?



One of my friends made a request that I'll make a post about "My Favorite Things", and I agreed. I'll start working on it now and I'll post it ASAP.



I'm still tired. Post again tomorrow!.

Labels: family, IDOL MANIA, pictures, PUPPY LOVE, Starbucks