LSS OF THE DAY: "HERE'S WHERE I STAND"
From: CAMP [Movie]

Enrollment yesterday. We were actually hoping that our schedule wouldn't be so bad, but after reading our registration forms, all our expectations crashed and burned.

I got some info from Doreen.


MONDAY:
11:00 A.M. - 2:00 P.M --> PSY 218; Group Dynamics
5:00 P.M. - 8:00 P.M. --> FIL 2 [Holy crap, I'm gonna die]
*Three-hour break? I guess I can deal with that.


TUESDAY:
10:00 A.M. - 1:00 P.M. --> APP; Art Appreciation [Hmmmm. I wonder what this is for]


WEDNESDAY:
10:00 A.M. - 1:00 P.M. --> SPN 1; Elementary Spanish. [I'm actually looking forward to this]
3:00 P.M. - 6:00 P.M. --> PSY 210; Experimental Psychology [As long as its not Prof. Psychotic who's gonna handle us then I'm cool with this]


THURSDAY:
FREEDOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!


FRIDAY:
8:00 A.M. - 11:00 A.M. --> LIT 103 [YAY!]
3:00 P.M. - 6:00 P.M. --> BES 201; Psychometrics 1 [I think Kuya Sherwin mentioned something about this. I can't remember if it was a good thing or a bad thing]
*And what the hell am I supposed to do for four hours?!


SATURDAY:
1:00 P.M. - 4:00 P.M. --> MATH 604; Statistics for BES. [HOLY HELL. I'm really gonna die now]
*What a nightmare! Saturday class? And MATH? Their murdering me!!!



I'm kind of thankful that we won't be staying until nine in the evening. But still!


This is gonna be one hell of a year.

Labels: schedules, school woes

NOTE: This post has been edited.

LSS OF THE DAY: "WHAT YOU OWN"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

I knew it wasn't gonna last long. Oh well..






So, I did leave for Manila yesterday early morning, around 2:30. I got to the dorm around 8 because I still had to change into my uniform; seriously, we still needed to wear uniforms just to get our clearance? Stupid, really. But anyway, I waited for my friends, and when everyone was there, Meg held out these bags for me and Judith; turns out they were our early birthday presents (Judith's birthday is today; mine is on the 12th). And the others gave me letters; Simon drew an angel for me.






Then we went inside our building, got our clearances and went to the Health Service because Meg had to do something there. Jay followed us there and we had fun talking to Ma'am Shake.






Stayed in the school for awhile so I read the letters they gave me. I was touched by Simon's letter and I was laughing at Meg's letter but when it came to Albert's, my heart sank.





He wrote that he likes me, and that it's actually getting close to love. I was suspecting for a while that he might actually like me but I didn't think it was like that. I kept the letter and tried to act as normally as possible. I talked to Meg and apparently, everyone in the group knew about it EXCEPT me.






"I care for you very much, and like you the same. What I feel is more than friendship, close to a romantic relationship. I am not prepared to say "I love you", though as time passes and things change, I hope to whisper it sincerely and passionately and shout it triumphantly."

That was just part of what he said, but I think he summed it all up in just these sentences.







While I was reading it, I couldn't stop thinking, "This is not happening. This CAN'T be happening." I already had a hunch that he liked me but I just ignored it, praying that it would just fade. But it didn't.







I've already thought about this ever since I first suspected that he liked me, and whatever I think or say, it always comes down to one conclusion: he's like a brother to me, and just the mere thought of me and him getting together makes me cringe because it really doesn't feel right.







I just sent him a message through Multiply. I hope he takes it as a man. I know that it'll create tensions between us, but I believe that it'll pass.






While Simon accompanied me in waiting for an FX in Espanya, Danzel walked by. He looked a bit surprised to see me with Simon (I actually saw him give something close to a "death glare" as he looked at Mon), and sure enough, he thought that he was courting me. I was talking to him awhile ago when he asked if I had a "new guy"; paranoid, much?







I left Manila around 3:40 and I arrived in Dagupan by 9pm. Whew!







So anyway, I think all the contestants on American Idol are pretty stressed out. Some of them weren't as giddy as they used to be or they seemed to space out a bit. David Cook looked exhausted after he performed and he was always smiling after he sang. I guess it's because of Idol Gives Back which will air tomorrow. Jason Castro did really well; and, alright, Christy Lee Cook did well too. I'm scared for Carly. I hope Syesha gets the boot on Friday.

"So I own not a notion, I escape and gape, content. I don't own emotion, I RENT.."

Labels: American Idol, confusion, decisions, friends and laughter, love thing, Manila life, RENT, revelations, schedules, school

LSS OF THE DAY: "WITHOUT YOU"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

Dear lord, I'm exhausted.






Last Saturday, I didn't go home. So yeah, I was stuck in my cave (dorm).






And last Sunday, I had to attend this thing for LTS; okay, it was a Mass and sort of like a closing program but I found it to be dull. And what was worse was that the NSTP coordinator told us off for being noisy, TWICE! That was so humiliating. And to think, we're in college and yet we still act like a bunch of pre-schoolers. Oh well. We stayed in school until 8pm. As always, we played frisbee even though it was pretty dark. Lots of one-on-one moments that I'll never forget.






Sarah and Mau broke up; but I think they're together again. Or is it just my imagination?






My ninang from the States called me yesterday just to check on how I was doing. I was really touched when she told me that she misses me. She's one of those old people who knows how to relate to today's generation, since she has two kids who are just a few years older than me. She told me stories about her younger days, when she and my tito weren't married yet. Their courtship, how they were able to handle their break-up and still remained close, and how he proposed. Needless to say, it was nakakakilig; and coming from her, that's saying a lot! I told her about my current "situation" with--well, you know who; she told me some stuff and I'd rather not say them here. Ssssshhh! I can't wait for her to call again.






And I am very pleased to say that as of yesterday, I have a son! Not biological, of course. Remember our family tree? Iris is my "mom", Meg and Janel are my "daughters", Sarah's our "dog", Gian's my "sister", Albert's my "brother-in-law", Simon's my "stepfather"; we don't have positions for Judith, Claudette and Jigo yet, and now Jay (Albert's friend, who's been hanging out with us) is now my "son". Me, Meg, Albert and Jay stayed in school until seven last night in Lovers Lane. Just talking. Meg even took a video of Jay and his inability to do the steps that Jigo did last week; now I have something to laugh at when I'm depressed. No offense, Jay; love yah, m'boy!






And tomorrow's gonna be a busy day for us.

MARCH 12, 2008 (Wednesday)

8:00 - 9:00 -> Meet up at the Pav for Stat
9:00 - 12:00 -> Debate drill
12:00 - 3:00 -> CLASSES
3:00 - 4:00 -> Exam in Theology (should have been today but she didn't show up)

*and some time between 4:00-7:00 we have to take a quiz in Bio through E-Leap AND attend the election of officers for BESSCIFED.

Is that busy, or is that busy?






Which reminds me, I have to write down all that stuff that Meg told me for the debate. I volunteered to replace Judith since she really wasn't into it. At least I made someone's day.






I'm beginning to notice something. But I wouldn't want to sound hasty or anything, so I'll just sit back and watch how everything will turn out.






I saw him awhile ago in front of our building, while I was talking to Albert. I hate it when I get shivers down my spine everytime I see him. I am so weak. Pathetic, really.

"If he doesn't make a move, forget about him" - my friends.

But the thing is, I'm already trying. Why isn't it working?

Labels: BesFed, crap, decisions, depression and tears, emotions, exhaustion, family, love thing, relapse, reminders, RENT, revelations, schedules, school, school woes

LSS OF THE DAY: "FORTUNE FAVORS THE BRAVE"

From: AIDA [Musical]

I wish Adam Pascal was my husband; that way I'd be able to listen to him sing to me every single day

I'M ALIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE!

I've had a very tiring week; I swear, if things get any harder I don't think I'll be able to cope with it.




First: On Sunday, we went to The Block near SM North Edsa; I had Mom buy me three books and I bet you will not believe what I got. "BORED OF THE RINGS", "THE DA VINCI COD" and the music sheet of Les Miserables; okay, the last one was okay but you gotta admit that the first two sounded funny. Then they dropped me off in the dorm since I had to attend that stupid LTS seminar; I had to dress up really quickly 'coz I think I only had fifteen minutes to spare. I speed-walked to the Engineering building (which was like, on the other side of the campus so it was a pretty long walk) and got there at around 3:05. I was so exhausted that I sat down as quickly as possible; but when the roll-call came, I was mentioned so I approached the iunstructor and asked why I wasn't called. She consulted her list once again but she didn't find my name so she told me to go to another room and look for one of the instructors who has the over-all lists. I left and went to the said room but he said that he didn't havve the list so he told me to go to another room and asked the instructor there. I did as he said but when I got there, surprise surprise, my name still wasn't there. So, she told me to go to another room; this time, the instructor in that room had all the lists and I finally found where I should be. I already wasted almost thirty minutes going back and forth from all those rooms. We'll be teaching in Bataan in Febuary.




Then, on Monday, while I was in Netopia and Tony was plugged on the PC, when I took him out, ALL MY SONGS AND VIDEOS were gone. I was so upset; Tony was one of my links to civilization! I had almost 2,000 songs and a lot of videos; ALL GONE. But luckily, I saved some of the songs so I asked one of my classmates to transfer them for me. I'll just have to download the rest later.




Tuesday, during P.E., we had to learn how to pass the ball with our heads (I'm taking up football with my friends); it hurt as first but as we got used to it, it wasn't so bad. But my head hurt so badly on my way back to the dorm, along with my back, legs and the upper part of my arms. Later in the afternoon, I was sitting outside the classroom waiting for the freshmen to come out when I saw one of my old friends; we talked for a while before he went up the stairs. I missed him. When the people in the classroom came out, I went in with my friends but as soon as I sat on my chair at the back, the PA did its annoying opening tune. At first I thought that they could be praying the Angelus but then I realized that it was almost one in the afternoon; the Angelus was said at twelve. Then someone announced:

"Attention, may we request all students, faculty and personnel to be please evacuate the building and proceed to the pavillions in front".

I was surprised but I immediately grabbed my bag and followed everyone out of the room. I felt my phone vibrate in my bag but I didn't take it out since we were still walking and there were a lot of people so I couldn't risk dropping it when someone bumped into me. Once we were outside with Sarah, on of my friends, we frantically searched for the others; when we couldn't find them I thought of texting them so when I got my phone I read the message someone sent me earlier. It was one of my classmates, and friend, Janel, who said that there was an earthquake. An earthquake? No way! I didn't feel a thing; and from the look on Sarah's face after I told her, she didn't either.Then our ABSC president came by and told us to go to the Plaza Mayor where all of the AB students are assembling. We went there and talked with a few more people, asking if they felt the quake; some of them did, some of them didn't. We managed to find our other classmates and we wiated for any further announcements; we even took pictures just to kill the time

So many people; Meg and Sarah goofing around

We thought that classes were going to be suspended but they resumed it anyway; darn




Wednesday, quiz in Statistics and PhilHist. After class I attended the Pax Romana choir practice; it's been awhile since I attended because of all the stuff we've been doing. I really missed it there. Made a lot of new friends too. We finished around six; on my way out, Kuya Sherwin saw me and called me over. He told me some stuff and he asked if I was available next Tuesday; I said yes, so he asked if I wanted to join the exposure trip to Bilibid. Naturally, I said yes; it may be a prison, but the memories from last year's trip there came flooding back and I really wanted to go there again. He said I could invite one of my classmates. Then we talked for a while longer nefore leaving. It was also about this time that I decided that I will not audition for Moulin Rouge; my colds aren't getting any better




Thursday, we had our reporting in English and we were required to dress up in corporate attire; I had to ask Hazel if she could lend me some since all my other stuff is in Dagupan. She said we did very well, and I think we did okay. At least we're done. And, yeah, the whole coup d'etat thing. I asked my Mom if she could pick me up from the dorm and to immense surprise, she agreed. I only knew about the whole Trillanes thing when my Dad texted me; I asked Meg to fill me in on it. When I got to the dorm, I waited for Mom. After about an hour or so, she went up to my room; I asked her why didn't she just text me? Turns out that I haven't been recieving any of her messages for the past half hour. She told me that we had to get out of there as fast as we could because they imposed a curfew. Needless to say, I was silently panicking while we were on the road; there was no way in hell that I am going to spend a whole night in a police station if we got caught. And guess what? We passed through the last check-point at exactly 11:59; how cool is that? So, yes, we were spared.




Thank you to the people who were texting me that night and to those who tried to keep me calm




Now I'm home and I'm hoping that there wouldn't be another seminar on Sunday.




I really hate being sick




I can't believe how stubborn he is! I WANNA KILL HIM!




Okay. If that's the way she wants it, so be it.




I saw someone last night when we were in one of the restaurants along the Expressway; she looked so--familiar.




So far, I haven't had any weird dreams and I've been sleeping very well for the past few days. Usually I wake up in the middle of the night or early morning a few times but not any more. I hope it stays this way




I've written about twenty-five pages of my story in one of my notebooks. Now I'm getting a major case of writer's block. Darnit




Martina McBride's music videos of "God's Will" and "Concrete Angel" made me cry. Watch them yourself: Concrete Angel, God's Will.




Alright, best be off. I have a lot of downloading to do

Labels: ADAM LOVE, AIDA, anger and forgiveness, annoyance, friends, schedules, school, school woes

LSS OF THE DAY: "HOW I KNOW YOU"

From: AIDA [Musical]

You know as well as I do that I'm never gonna stop obsessing over musicals, right?



It's been an interesting week but the highlight of it was:

I TOUCHED A CADAVER!

Yup! You heard me! And it was so cool! I wanna do it again



Lots of work to do. I hate secomd semester; the hardest subjects are usually there




I forgot to mention in my previous post that I had three dreams in just one night; well, morning to be exact; I kept on waking up so I wasn't able to finish all of them. The first one involved Romeo; I can't remember which one of us was leaving but he kept on saying "It's not fair". I was curious, I wanted to know what it meant.




The second dream (right after I fell asleep again), it was raining, and I was standing on a ship. And to make things a little more weird, Orlando Bloom was standing beside me and Johnny Depp was somewhere there ordering people around; I was in Pirates of the Carribean. Another ship was chasing us and they were pelting us with cannon balls and--arrows? Who uses arrows in a thuderstorm during a ship-chase? So, anyway, Orlando (or rather, Will Turner) got hit and I had to take of the arrow and try to stop him from losing a lot of blood; he woke up awhile later, and so did I. I would have loved to finish that dream



Third dream: We were in a huge house; it was abandoned but then we weren't really sure if the real owner of the house was still there or not; in other words, dead or undead. You get the picture. We were lookig for something so we searched through the whole place; we even had some police guys accompany us; big guns and all. We went to the top floor to search the room of the "owner"; it was locked so we had to use the spare key we found somewhere. When it opened, we stepped inside and I saw that the electric fan was on; I remember telling my companions nervously that we should hurry. After a few minutes, I stepped out of the room and there was a flight of stairs behind me; all of a sudden, I heard a creak. I looked down quickly, only to find that a cat was passing by. I sighed in relief but then something strange was moving from my peripheral vision; a hand was creeping up the railings of the stairs and then I saw a person; all I thought of at that moment was to warn my companions because I was staring into the evil eyes of the pwner of the house. I waved my arms frantically because no sound was coming out of my mouth; I finally managed to blurt out: "She's here!" before waking up. It was then I realized that I actually screamed it; my heart was beating so fast that I was afraid that it would fall off or something. And then I prayed that my room mates didn't hear me; thank goodness one of them was fast asleep while the other one was taking a bath at that time. Whew!




Wierd, huh? But it keeps my life interesting




I'm coming down with the colds. Darn it



I'm planning to audition for Mediartix some time next week. Wish me luck



First seminar for LTS is on Sunday, 3-4 in the afternoon. Grrr

Labels: AIDA, dreams, schedules, school, school woes

LSS OF THE DAY: "ZERO TO HERO: FROM DISNEY'S HERCULES

Disney, Disney, Disney!.



Me and my sister, Patsy, went to Manila two days ago; I, to enroll and she, to see our Tita and our cousins. And to get the autographed picture of Lea Salonga from her; my Tita just came back from New York and she's bestfriends with Lea so they met up before she went on one of her shows.



Enrollment was HELL. It was so hot! But the worst part was when we were inside the Seminary Gym that really got me riled up; first we were on the wrong line (two times!!), the people were so slow in processing the data and the guards weren't very helpful when we asked for information. Very frustrating! After almost three hours of standing, we were finally done; last year's enrollment was faster. When we got out of the Gym, we sat at the benches near the gym so rest; Meg and I were wearing very uncomfortable shoes so we ahd Janel buy us some slippers from the over-pass. Meg and I were so happy when we got our shoes off!



I met with Pats, Tita Steffi and her kids, I changed clothes (we had to wear our uniform in enrolling; stupid, right?), and we were off to Glorietta in Makati. We left the kids at a play center while the rest of us went around; we also ate in Sugarhouse. I had a blueberry chessecake (you can never go wrong with that) while Pats and Tita Steffi each had a different kind of chocolate cake. It's really fun talking to Tita Steffi; she's cool. Then we went around some more, and bought a few stuff for our over-night stay at their house. That was kinda last-minute because Tita Steffi offered for us to stay with them that day so we weren't able to bring any extra clothes and the stuff that we needed.



After Glorietta, we went to their house in Dasmarinas (pronounced, DASMARINYAS) and rested. Afterwards we went to the Manila Polo Club for dinner. Then we went to Krispy Kremes for dessert. Deeeelicious! It has been two years since I last ate it so it feels really, really good to munch on those heavenly-tasting donuts again. Then we went around the Fort before heading home.



We woke up pretty early yesterday because we thought that we were going to leave early for the bus station; but the driver that Tita Steffi hired didn't show up so she had to call another driver. And he took the longest time in going there so we killed time by talking, eating (I just noticed that when we're with Tita Steffi, everybody gets suddenly hungry) and surfing the net. They had a garage sale that morning so it was pretty fun looking at the people buy and haggle over the stuff; earlier that day, Tita Steffi and Tito Jay were looking through their kids' stuff to see which ones were okay to sell. It didn't help that their eldest son, Jaime was there over-seeing their By the time that Tita Steffis' second driver was there, so was the first driver! So Tita Steffi had to send back the first driver, which was really embarassing. After awhile, we left to have an early lunch in this place called "Big Apple Pizza" near their house. The pizza slices were huge! Exactly the way I remembered it to be when I was in New York. We weent back home after that, and the driver took me and Pats to the bus station in Pasay. And off we went to Dagupan!



The traffic in Urdaneta was terrible and we were shivering inside the bus from the cold; it was raining that time. At least we got home safely.



tita Steffi told us some pretty funny stories about her kids, especially her youngest daughter, Sofia. She said that there was this one time when they were in this toy store in New York and she wanted this one toy but Tita Steffi wouldn't buy it for her; Sofia looked at her and said, "I'm gonna throw you off the window, Mommy". Hahaha!. And when we were in the car, Jaime was playign this game with Sofia where he would ask her these ridiculous stuff like, "Sofia, would you rather jump off a building or love Mommy?"; Sofia always answered the crazy thing. Of course, Tita Steffi would act all hurt and Jaime wouldn't stop until she says "Love Mommy". We finally got her to say that when Jaime said, "Would you rather love Mommy or love Mommy?". Good one, Jaime!.



Here are just some of the picturesI took while we were there.

ME AND MY COUSIN, JAIME





ME EATING KRISPY KREME. YUMMY!





TITA STEFFI SAD BECAUSE I'M EATING A DONUT AND SHE'S NOT. AWWW





JAIME, ME AND PATSY AT THE FORT





OUR CUTE COUSIN, SOFIA





PATSY AND SOFIA





LOOK AT THE SIZE OF THAT PIZZA SLICE!





ME AND TITA STEFFI





JAIME'S AD FOR JOHNSON'S WHEN HE WAS STILL A BABY (he also does ads for Hot Wheels and Best Foods Wonder Mayo)





LEA SALONGA'S AUTOGRAPHED PICTURE



More pictures on: http://lauredilian.multiply.com/photos/album/44

I got my schedule for this semester. And I don't like it one bit

MONDAY, WEDNESDAY and FRIDAY:
11:00-12:00 - RIZAL COURSE
12:00-1:00 - ENGLISH 102
1:00-2:00 - MATH 102B (NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!)
2:00-3:00 - PHILOSOPHY 5

TUESDAY AND THURSDAY:
1:00-2:30 - PHILOSOPHY 3A (TWO Philosophy subjects?! What the hell?!)
2:30-4:00 - NS 101 (I have no idea what that means)
4:00-5:30 - PSYCHOLOGY 213 (Please don't let it be Professor Neurotic-Psychotic)
5:30-7:00 - HISTORY 102 (I hope it's still Caloy; if he's not mad at us anymore)

P.E.
7:00-9:00 - TUESDAY - HANDBALL



So, I'm at 11 in the morning to 3 in the afternoon on MWF, and 1 in the afternoon to 7 at night on TTH; and we're in the same classroom as last year! Poor us



Will update again soon

Labels: MANILA TRIP, schedules, school