Your eyes
As we said our goodbyes
Can't get them out of my mind
And I find I can't hide from
Your eyes
The ones that took me by surprise
The night you came into my life
Where there's moonlight
I see your eyes

How'd I let you slip away
When I'm longing so to hold you
Now I'd die for one more day
'Cause there's something I should
Have told you
Yes there's something I should have
Told you

When I looked into your eyes
Why does distance make us wise?
You were the song all along
And before the song dies

I should tell you, I should tell you
I have always loved you
You can see it in my eyes

-Adam Pascal, "Your Eyes", RENT

I saw him this afternoon; I felt my knees got weak and I felt slightly light-headed. I shouldn't even be feeling that way; I hate it when he still has the power to make me feel weak. We actually had a short chat and I noticed that he looked at me in a funny way; it took me awhile to realize that he was looking at me the same way he did when he was on the verge of saying that he..well, loved me. Or if he didn't want to say it verbally, he always gave me that look that was enough to make me understand what it was he wanted to say. At first I thought that I was just imagining it, but that wasn't the case. I knew that he knew that he was looking at me that way, and he wasn't stopping himself. But, why didn't he, though?





I have some serious issues to sort out. Here we go again..





Going to Baguio tomorrow with Tito Adel, Nina, Andrea, Pats and Mon. Dad couldn't make it 'coz he's got work. Oh well.





Watch this video! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Fe11OlMiz8





Bye for now, love!

Labels: ADAM LOVE, family, love thing, RENT, videos

LSS OF THE DAY: "GOODBYE LOVE"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

I don't think I am EVER gonna get over this coz I love it to death! Adam Pascal, darling, my love for life. *looks around at the people staring* ...what?





Okay, enough day-dreaming. *crash* Grrr. I hate it when that happens.





So sad. No smileys *cries*





Remember when I said that I was going to the mall yesterday? I did go, and as I was waiting for the jeep that will pass by my dorm, I thought, "How far is it from here to there?". So, guess what? I walked; yes, I walked. From SM San Lazaro to Laong Laan. As I was walking, I could feel the stares of some of the people I was waiting with; but what do they care, right? And I was walking pretty fast, too since I've gotten so used to walking with my Dad (who's a pretty tall man so you can only imagine the strides he takes) so I'm stuck to speed-walking. After about ten minutes, or even less, I reached the street which was behind my dorm. I didn't think that it was that near! And to think that I've been wasting money on taking a jeep when I could just walk. Oh well.





Last night, Janel threw a party for her eighteenth birthday at Betty's behind Sto. Domingo Church along Quezon Avenue. I met up with Meg, Iris, Albert and Jigo in UST and we left together. We had to walk a little bit but we didn't mind. Our other classmates were already there when we arrived so we passed the time laughing our asses off about..well, everything. Took loads of pictures and made complete fools of ourselves. Our table was the noisiest and we stayed that way through the whole party. Janel came out, and I swear, she looked like a living doll! She was so cute!





First came the eighteen candles; Iris, Jan, Bea, Sarah and Judith were part of it. Me and Meg? Well, we'll get to that later.





When her mom announced that it was time to eat, my guy classmates jumped to their feet and beat us at the line; Albert even said that they might have purged before going there just to make room for all that food. You know how it is in some parties, when there's at least one or two of the dishes that doesn't really taste good? But there, every single dish was delicious! I'm not exaggerating or anything; ask the people I went with and they'll agree. I couldn't believe it; most of us went back for second, and third, helpings. When the dessert came, our pants were so tight that most of us couldn't get up anymore. But some, mostly the guys, decided to go up anyway and grab the sansrival that they were serving. Damn, those boys could eat! And even after they ate their sansrivals, they still got dessert from the chocolate fountain; I only nipped a bite from Albert's since I was so darn full.





After a while, when our tummies felt a teeny bit lighter, came the next part of the program; instead of the traditional eighteen roses, they decided to make it more fun. So instead, they made it to eighteen SHOTS. Yup, y'heard me; shots. And that's where me and Meg come in. We talk on the microphone to say something to Janel, grab a glass of white wine, toast to her, and down it. It was pretty good; even after we were done with our glass we kept on asking for re-fills. I had three glasses; Meg had four.





Then came the dancing. I swear, you wouldn't find any group that's crazier than ours. I could see how the other people were staring at us 'coz we were so rowdy and absolutely noisy. But hey, we were having fun! I think the wine started getting to me after a while so I had to sit down. I'm not very good with alcohol; sure, I drank four bottles of beer last March, but after that I swore not to drink more than two because of my darn allergies. And so far, I haven't touched a single beer bottle and I am proud of myself for that.





Bea was making a big fuss over me and Albert; oh, you know, the usual: a single girl and a single guy, sitting beside each other, drinking white wine and having a blast and that would usually lead to yadda yadda yadda..puh-lease! That is so cliche! As if I haven't had enough of those in my life. I'm not searching for anyone, and neither is he; we both just got off of our previous relationships and the pain is still pretty fresh. He's having trouble getting over his ex, and I'm--well, working on it. If I do get into another relationship, it's not bound to happen any time soon. I'm not in a rush.





A little later, they gave us the souveniers which we little plastic things that light up and blink, and they gave us these really cute cupcakes that looked so pretty that I couldn't imagine myself eating it.





We left before eleven because we were so exhausted. Meg, Albert and I rode on a taxi; Meg got down first and Albert rode with me to the dorm. My feet were killing me but I didn't mind. I stumbled onto bed and lay down.





But did I sleep? No. Jan and I were still talking; we've been talking for almost a whole day. I wasn't able to talk to him on Friday night because of that little squabble we had during the meeting. So, in a way, we were making up for lost time, even though it was only for a day. I enjoy talking to him; he makes me laugh since we have the silliest conversations. And we talked until almost five in the morning; I fell asleep 'coz I don't think my eyes could keep themselves open anymore. And when I woke up, guess who I was talking to? Him, again. Until now we're still talking.





Something is so wrong with Trent. I need to have him fixed tomorrow after class.





And by the way, the pictures from Janel's birthday will be posted next weekend, along with the other pictures that I promised to post.





I'm reading FanFiction again; I can't believe how long it's been since I last read some of my favorite stories. I can't even remember which chapter I stopped in. i admire the people who cam write stories like that. Although I'm currently working on a story of my own, I haven't even written half of it. The thing is, I know the twists, I know what's gonna happen to the characters and I know how it's gonna end, but I just can't find the way to actually lead them to it. I am so gonna work my ass off this Christmas break over this story, if its the last thing I do.





Christmas..





I miss James. I want to see him again. He's been weaving in and out of my dreams lately, but I still long to reach out and actually touch him, even though it's no longer possible. Sometimes I still wonder why God had to take him away from me so soon; but now I know why: He wanted James to be my guardian angel, that way he'll always be there to protect me, unlike when he was alive we'd hardly see each other. Now, he has every reason to make sure that nothing happens to me. That's my buddy. And I love him for that.





I am currently in Fairview because there is absolutely no way in hell that I'm gonna spend another night in my cave alone. And besides, I get free internet access here. *sneaky*





Well, I'm off to reading more FanFiction; and I'm still talking to Jan. He's worrying about something.





Catch you later, love!

Labels: ADAM LOVE, FanFic, friends, friends and laughter, issues, peeves, RENT

LSS OF THE DAY: "FORTUNE FAVORS THE BRAVE"

From: AIDA [Musical]

I wish Adam Pascal was my husband; that way I'd be able to listen to him sing to me every single day

I'M ALIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE!

I've had a very tiring week; I swear, if things get any harder I don't think I'll be able to cope with it.




First: On Sunday, we went to The Block near SM North Edsa; I had Mom buy me three books and I bet you will not believe what I got. "BORED OF THE RINGS", "THE DA VINCI COD" and the music sheet of Les Miserables; okay, the last one was okay but you gotta admit that the first two sounded funny. Then they dropped me off in the dorm since I had to attend that stupid LTS seminar; I had to dress up really quickly 'coz I think I only had fifteen minutes to spare. I speed-walked to the Engineering building (which was like, on the other side of the campus so it was a pretty long walk) and got there at around 3:05. I was so exhausted that I sat down as quickly as possible; but when the roll-call came, I was mentioned so I approached the iunstructor and asked why I wasn't called. She consulted her list once again but she didn't find my name so she told me to go to another room and look for one of the instructors who has the over-all lists. I left and went to the said room but he said that he didn't havve the list so he told me to go to another room and asked the instructor there. I did as he said but when I got there, surprise surprise, my name still wasn't there. So, she told me to go to another room; this time, the instructor in that room had all the lists and I finally found where I should be. I already wasted almost thirty minutes going back and forth from all those rooms. We'll be teaching in Bataan in Febuary.




Then, on Monday, while I was in Netopia and Tony was plugged on the PC, when I took him out, ALL MY SONGS AND VIDEOS were gone. I was so upset; Tony was one of my links to civilization! I had almost 2,000 songs and a lot of videos; ALL GONE. But luckily, I saved some of the songs so I asked one of my classmates to transfer them for me. I'll just have to download the rest later.




Tuesday, during P.E., we had to learn how to pass the ball with our heads (I'm taking up football with my friends); it hurt as first but as we got used to it, it wasn't so bad. But my head hurt so badly on my way back to the dorm, along with my back, legs and the upper part of my arms. Later in the afternoon, I was sitting outside the classroom waiting for the freshmen to come out when I saw one of my old friends; we talked for a while before he went up the stairs. I missed him. When the people in the classroom came out, I went in with my friends but as soon as I sat on my chair at the back, the PA did its annoying opening tune. At first I thought that they could be praying the Angelus but then I realized that it was almost one in the afternoon; the Angelus was said at twelve. Then someone announced:

"Attention, may we request all students, faculty and personnel to be please evacuate the building and proceed to the pavillions in front".

I was surprised but I immediately grabbed my bag and followed everyone out of the room. I felt my phone vibrate in my bag but I didn't take it out since we were still walking and there were a lot of people so I couldn't risk dropping it when someone bumped into me. Once we were outside with Sarah, on of my friends, we frantically searched for the others; when we couldn't find them I thought of texting them so when I got my phone I read the message someone sent me earlier. It was one of my classmates, and friend, Janel, who said that there was an earthquake. An earthquake? No way! I didn't feel a thing; and from the look on Sarah's face after I told her, she didn't either.Then our ABSC president came by and told us to go to the Plaza Mayor where all of the AB students are assembling. We went there and talked with a few more people, asking if they felt the quake; some of them did, some of them didn't. We managed to find our other classmates and we wiated for any further announcements; we even took pictures just to kill the time

So many people; Meg and Sarah goofing around

We thought that classes were going to be suspended but they resumed it anyway; darn




Wednesday, quiz in Statistics and PhilHist. After class I attended the Pax Romana choir practice; it's been awhile since I attended because of all the stuff we've been doing. I really missed it there. Made a lot of new friends too. We finished around six; on my way out, Kuya Sherwin saw me and called me over. He told me some stuff and he asked if I was available next Tuesday; I said yes, so he asked if I wanted to join the exposure trip to Bilibid. Naturally, I said yes; it may be a prison, but the memories from last year's trip there came flooding back and I really wanted to go there again. He said I could invite one of my classmates. Then we talked for a while longer nefore leaving. It was also about this time that I decided that I will not audition for Moulin Rouge; my colds aren't getting any better




Thursday, we had our reporting in English and we were required to dress up in corporate attire; I had to ask Hazel if she could lend me some since all my other stuff is in Dagupan. She said we did very well, and I think we did okay. At least we're done. And, yeah, the whole coup d'etat thing. I asked my Mom if she could pick me up from the dorm and to immense surprise, she agreed. I only knew about the whole Trillanes thing when my Dad texted me; I asked Meg to fill me in on it. When I got to the dorm, I waited for Mom. After about an hour or so, she went up to my room; I asked her why didn't she just text me? Turns out that I haven't been recieving any of her messages for the past half hour. She told me that we had to get out of there as fast as we could because they imposed a curfew. Needless to say, I was silently panicking while we were on the road; there was no way in hell that I am going to spend a whole night in a police station if we got caught. And guess what? We passed through the last check-point at exactly 11:59; how cool is that? So, yes, we were spared.




Thank you to the people who were texting me that night and to those who tried to keep me calm




Now I'm home and I'm hoping that there wouldn't be another seminar on Sunday.




I really hate being sick




I can't believe how stubborn he is! I WANNA KILL HIM!




Okay. If that's the way she wants it, so be it.




I saw someone last night when we were in one of the restaurants along the Expressway; she looked so--familiar.




So far, I haven't had any weird dreams and I've been sleeping very well for the past few days. Usually I wake up in the middle of the night or early morning a few times but not any more. I hope it stays this way




I've written about twenty-five pages of my story in one of my notebooks. Now I'm getting a major case of writer's block. Darnit




Martina McBride's music videos of "God's Will" and "Concrete Angel" made me cry. Watch them yourself: Concrete Angel, God's Will.




Alright, best be off. I have a lot of downloading to do

Labels: ADAM LOVE, AIDA, anger and forgiveness, annoyance, friends, schedules, school, school woes

LSS OF THE DAY: "NOT ME"

From: AIDA [Musical]

It's either that or "RENT"; take your pick



*sigh* I'm so exhausted; physically and emotionally (Wow, I just repeated the same thing from one of my old posts). Physically because I haven't been sleeping very well, which is entirely my fault since I've been sleeping early in the morning and waking up in the afternoon. Emotionally, well, I bet you guys know that already.



Remember what I said before, about me and Romeo not talking? Well, the other day he sent a group message (GM) and I was so pissed; let's just say that I wasn't supposed to read a part of it. If only he sent it to the people with whom he was texting with that night and I WASN'T ONE OF THEM. So why on earth did he bother to send it to me when I wasn't even speaking to him? UGH! He can be so infuriating!



I even saw him in the cemetery while me and my brother walked around to find something to drink; one of his friends called me and when I turned, I smiled at all of them but not HIM. Too bad.



And then last night, he sent me quote, which melted my heart a little bit but then it was gone as quickly as it came. I was bit touched by it, but..I dunno.



Someone sent me this on Friendster:

Boy and girl
talking.. On the
phone


-Girl
I love you.


- Boy:
Yeah I know everyone does!


-Girl:
Really?

- Boy:
Yeah...every one of my friends that are
girls tell me that everyday.


- Girl:
Oh...but am I only your friend?


- Boy:
No...You’re my girlfriend...why?


- Girl:
So when I say I love you I really do
mean it.


- Boy:
Yeah I know you do mean it...its just
that you dont need to tell me that you
love me anymore cuz I know you love me
since the day we been together and i
love you more each and everyday.


- Girl:
......


- Boy:
So wanna go somewhere tonight for our
7th anniversary?


- Girl:
Yeah...wher e?


- Boy:
I dont know...maybe movie then dinner?


- Girl:
Ok.


- Boy:
Ill pick you up after I get off and get
ready ok?


- Girl:
Ok. What time do you get off?


- Boy:
In 2 hours and then I gotta go home and
yeah get ready which takes about 15-20
mintues...


-Girl:
hey...I thought you didnt have work
today...


- Boy:
One of my co-workers called in sick.


- Girl:
Oh okay! So ill see you around 7:30
then?


- Boy:
Yeah! and babe?


- Girl:
Yeah?

- Boy:
I love you.


- Girl:
I love you too!


- Boy:
Ok my manager is like looking at me so
yeah.... i gotta go.


- Girl:
Ok bye.


- Boy:
Bye.


**************** ************


2 hours later...


The guy drives to his girlfriends house
and walks up to the door and rings
bell.

- Girl:
Hey! (gives a kiss to her boyfriend)

- Boy:
Wassup...you ready?


- Girl:
Um...wait.. .let me get my bag and we
can
go ok?


- Boy:
Ok.


They both watched a movie and ate
dinner...once they were done eating
they
he ad back to the car but before she got
into the car...


- Boy:
Wait! Can I blind fold you?


- Girl:
Why??!


- Boy:
Its a suprise.


- Girl:
What kind of suprise?


- Boy:
A big one.


- Girl:
Okay but only if you promise me that
you
will hold my hand while we're driving.


- Boy:
I promise.


- Girl:
Ok blind fold me...


So they drove off...........and then
they stoped.


- Boy:
Ok we're here!


-Girl:
Where?


- Boy:
Wait let me walk you to the place!


- Girl:
What place?


- Boy:
Somewhere! (and gives a kiss to her on
the lips)


- Girl:
Baby!...


The boy walks her to the place.


- Boy:
Ok...let me take the blind fold off.


- Girl:
Where are we?


He takes it off her and she opens her
eyes and sees the view of the city and
at that same spot...that's where he
first asked her to be his
girlfriend... .


- Girl:
Omg...(tear s come down)


- Boy:
Why are you crying?


- Girl:
This is where you first asked me out...


- Boy:
What are you doing the rest of your
life? (he asked on his knees and after
he says that...behind him...in the air
it says "Will you marry me?" in
fireworks)


- Girl:
(tears come down faster)


- Boy:
I wasnt at work when you called me...I
was planning this whole thing!


- Girl:
Get up!


- Boy:
Yeah?


- Girl:
(kisses him)


- Boy:
Is that a yes or a no?


- Girl:
Yes.

Well, you don't get guys like THAT anymore.



Thank you to the people who have talked some sense into me; I was being a little rash but hey, I'm only human. I'm looking forward to the day when I can look back on all of this and laugh my heart out.



But for today, let me say:

ROMEO AND LUISA

ROMZ AND LUI

AZRIAN AND EURICE

LOMEO AND RUISA


20 and 12

are


going strongCOMPLETELY OVER

There, I said it. Now all I have to do is try to convince the people who liked us so much that they shouldn't keep their hopes up of us getting back together. I wouldn't want them to believe that everything is alright between us, when it really isn't.



Thank goodness Adam Pascal lives; his songs are making me very happy



Going back to Manila on Tuesday, school on Wednesday. Great.



Can anybody suggest songs that I could download? Tony is in serious need of new songs

Labels: ADAM LOVE, AIDA, heartbreak, love thing, past love and new hate, TONY LOVE

LSS OF THE DAY: "A STEP TOO FAR"

From: AIDA [Musical]

Wow. For the first time in -- uhh -- three months, I have an LSS that's not from "RENT"; I bet some people are saying "Whew! Finally!". But of course, I still love it; and ADAM PASCAL. Though it really doesn't make that much of a difference 'coz Adam Pascal also did AIDA



My sister and I watched "STARDUST" this afternoon; I absolutely loved it! Go watch!

POSTER




CLAIRE DANES AND CHARLIE COX; What happens to them? Read the book or watch the movie

I got the summary from http://www.starpulse.com/Movies/Stardust/Summary. I'm too lazy to type it myself.

A charmingly naïve boy from the English village of Wall travels to a magical, mythical world in search of the falling star that will help him win the heart of his true love in this fantasy adventure starring Charlie Cox, Claire Danes, Robert De Niro, Michelle Pfeiffer, Ricky Gervais, and Sienna Miller. For hundreds of years the massive cobblestone barrier that surrounds the sleepy English hamlet of Wall has kept the citizens of the village safe and secure from the malevolent supernatural forces that stir just outside its perimeter. When dashing Tristran Thorn (Cox) promises the fairest girl in the village, Victoria (Miller), that he will prove his love by bestowing her with a genuine falling star, his daring mission sends him on an adventure far outside the comfortable confines of Wall. In order to find the fallen star, Tristran will have to ascend the wall and venture deep into the forbidden heart of the fantastical realm known as Stormhold. Upon discovering that the meteorite he sought was in fact a beautiful girl named Yvaine (Danes), who has stumbled though space and is now being pursued by the King of Stormhold's (Peter O'Toole) sons (who long to use her cosmic powers to lay claim to the throne), Tristran vows to protect the otherworldly visitor at all costs. But the King's sons aren't the only ones in search of the luminous Yvaine; fearsome witch Lamia (Pfeiffer) has become convinced that the young girl's power can help her to achieve eternal youth and beauty. As Tristran makes his way through Stormhold on a mission to bring the star back to Wall, he will encounter a series of spectacular characters and creatures that will lead him to a fate he never imagined.

I was only able to read half of the book coz I borrowed it from my cousin. But my sister was happy 'coz for ONCE, I don't know how its going to end; she kept on reminding me that almost every book that I've read gets turned into a movie so I know everything about it.



When it comes out on DVD, I am so gonna buy it!



I finished reading "The Guardian" last night; I already started with "By The River Piedra I saw Down and Wept". Nice title. And the first part made me cry a bit 'coz I can relate to what the character was going through. *sigh* Love..



All for now

Labels: ADAM LOVE, AIDA, movie mania, reviews

LSS OF THE DAY: "WILL I?" FROM THE MOVIE, "RENT"

TODAY IS ADAM PASCAL'S BIRTHDAY!



I had a great time while watching the Intrams in Domincan this afternoon; I had fun cheering for the teachers and parents. Poor Ma'am Valle. Hahahaha!



Some of my classmates from high school were there too; I wasn't able to see some of them yesterday so a lot of hugs and kisses went around. Its always great to see the again; nothing beats the years we spent together.



And of course, the college freshmen were there; I'm pretty close to their batch. As I leaned back and listened to their stories about how they were coping with college life so far, I couldn't help but smile and think back to the times when I was just like them nearly a year ago. I'm very proud of them and I can't wait to hear what they have to say next year. Now a lot of the seniors were asking me how I'm taking it; I smiled and told them that everything's okay once you get past the first school year.



I took pictures of Sister Althea!

How cute is she?

Ronn said "hi" to me as I was passing by on my way to the canteen with Louise; we just ate some really burnt peanuts so we had to get something to get rid of the nasty after-taste. When I said "hi" back, I knew that Romeo's eyes were watching me; I felt it. I guess he was hoping that I would look at him and say "hi" to him, too. But unfortunately for him, that didn't happen



When he did say "hi" to me, I just nodded my head and avoided his gaze. I'm not ready to face him just yet.



I just remembered a song that my sister let me hear some time ago; by Carrie Underwood. The chorus really hit me.

Oh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Damn. I could hear and feel my heart breaking again

Labels: ADAM LOVE, country love, emotions, friends and laughter, love thing, pictures, RENT

LSS OF THE DAY: "I'LL COVER YOU" FROM THE MOVIE, "RENT"

Yesterday, it was the sad version; now its the happy version. I love listening Jesse L. Martin and Wilson Jermaine Heredia; their voices are perfect

My current desktop:

What can I say? I'm proud of my school





My current wall paper on my cell phone:





I LOVE HIM TO DEATH!

If I find an even BETTER picture of him, I am so gonna take it!

Glorietta2 got bombed this afternoon and I'm scared as hell; so far we haven't gotten any news if any of our family members were there (my tita and her two kids often go there) and we are so thankful.



I am loving The Eagles. They may be a little old, but the are still the best; try listening to their song "How Long".



I am still obsessing over the Draco-Hermione pairings in FanFiction; good thing I'm not the only one



Uhh..excuse me? Romeo who? Next!. I can be so mean sometimes; but nah, I'm kidding; I'm still not over him. But I'm trying; it takes time to forget about these things but I'm not rushing 'coz there's no need to rush in the first place. As of now, Tony's my man; well, he's always been my man



I watched the movie "Cassanova" starring Heath Ledger and I must say that I underestimated that movie; it was quite entertaining. I love the way Sienna Miller portrayed her character; and Heath Ledger was absolutely perfect for the role!



Okay, I'm off to reading more FanFics!

Labels: ADAM LOVE, FanFic, goin' oldies, movie mania, RENT, shitty, TONY LOVE