Your eyes
As we said our goodbyes
Can't get them out of my mind
And I find I can't hide from
Your eyes
The ones that took me by surprise
The night you came into my life
Where there's moonlight
I see your eyes

How'd I let you slip away
When I'm longing so to hold you
Now I'd die for one more day
'Cause there's something I should
Have told you
Yes there's something I should have
Told you

When I looked into your eyes
Why does distance make us wise?
You were the song all along
And before the song dies

I should tell you, I should tell you
I have always loved you
You can see it in my eyes

-Adam Pascal, "Your Eyes", RENT

I saw him this afternoon; I felt my knees got weak and I felt slightly light-headed. I shouldn't even be feeling that way; I hate it when he still has the power to make me feel weak. We actually had a short chat and I noticed that he looked at me in a funny way; it took me awhile to realize that he was looking at me the same way he did when he was on the verge of saying that he..well, loved me. Or if he didn't want to say it verbally, he always gave me that look that was enough to make me understand what it was he wanted to say. At first I thought that I was just imagining it, but that wasn't the case. I knew that he knew that he was looking at me that way, and he wasn't stopping himself. But, why didn't he, though?





I have some serious issues to sort out. Here we go again..





Going to Baguio tomorrow with Tito Adel, Nina, Andrea, Pats and Mon. Dad couldn't make it 'coz he's got work. Oh well.





Watch this video! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Fe11OlMiz8





Bye for now, love!

Labels: ADAM LOVE, family, love thing, RENT, videos

LSS OF THE DAY: "I'LL COVER YOU"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

The year's almost over; and to think that I should be over this by now, right? WRONG





Before I start to break down and bawl my eyes out, let me tell you guys about our Paskuhan since I didn't say anything about it. On that morning, December 19, upon waking up, the first thing that I said was, "OUCH"; why? Well, it was my first day of "that girl thing" and it hurt like hell! I couldn't move for the next thirty minutes or so, I just laid there on the top-bunk of our double-decker bed and fought the urge to scream my ass off. When I finally got down, I took a long bath and left to withdraw money from the bank before meeting up with my friends.





I got some bad news: Grizzly Bear couldn't make it. Oh well.





Once we were all there, we exchanged gifts and took pictures; as night fell, we watched the fireworks, grabbed some stuff to eat, sat on the grass in the field, watched Parokya Ni Edgar as they played; stuff like that.





There are a few things that I learned that night:

• When two of your friends are drunk, keep your distance or they'll breathe you to death;
  
• Never leave anyone out, even if they're busy doing something else; always ask if they could come;
  
• Don't wear too low-cut shirts;
  
• Don't wear bright-colored shirts if you know that your gonna sweat a lot;
  
• Bring a trashbag;
  
• Bring lots of extra cash;
  
• SLEEP AS MUCH AS YOU CAN THE DAY BEFORE SAID EVENT.
  

Yeah, two of my friends had I-S-S-U-E-S that day and they seriously need to sort them out by next year. They reeked of alcohol when they met up with us and it was disgusting.





And yes, we used trash bags to lie down on the grass since it was so...soily? Wait, is that even a word? Anyway, we sat there, as Parokya Ni Edgar played. It was almost midnight when we went home.





I went to Dagupan the next day.





I finally have the sheet music of "RENT" and "WICKED"; thanks Tita Beth!. Now all I need is a piano..





I got a henna tattoo! Just check it out on my Multiply.





On the 22nd, me and my family went to Manila to spend Christmas with our relatives in Fairview. Our relatives from Davao got there before us and there was a lot of greetings flying back and forth. That night, we watched this show called "The Wanders" in PAGCOR; it was amazing! All the stunts, the cute Chinese guys, the costumes, the cute Chinese guys, the songs, the cute Chinese guys and, oh yeah, the cute Chinese guys. I swear, my mouth was open through the entire show.





The next day, after hearing Mass, we played a game called "Cranium" which is sort of like a mixture of charades, trivia, drawing, clay-molding and a lot more stuff and it was really fun. Then at night we went to Trinoma, where we splurged on books, ate at Conggo Grille, and splurged again on TimeZone.





On Christmas Eve, our cousins from Antipolo came over for lunch and we had a game of Cranium, again. Had lots of fun, as always. We had a great dinner that night, then we opened our gifts and played games before hearing Mass. When we got back, we did a little bit of "witchcraft": runes, tarot cards; and as strange as it may sound, the runes and tarot cards that I got were--well--accurate to what I was feeling at the time. I won't say what they read, but let me just say that I was a bit freaked out.





And this morning, my family and the people from Davao went back to Dagupan..and here we are!





I had a great Christmas; I can't wait for next year





But sadly, my happiness isn't meant to last for long...





I know I shouldn't care. I know I should be getting over him; but no matter how hard I try, I just can't. It's like he's got this really firm grip on me that makes it hard for me to breathe. I was talking to him the other day and I asked him, just in passing, if he liked someone else; when he said that he might be starting to like someone else, I think my heart shirveled and burnt itself. I fought back the tears that threatened to fall even if I wanted to let it out so badly. I kept on thinking to myself, "You shouldn't care..you shouldn't care..". I wish I could say that it helped, but I would be lying to myself if I did.






After all this time, when I thought that I have started to move on, I crash back to where I started. I want to get over him so badly; I want this pain to end. This is so infuriating.






She's right; I'm trash. I don't deserve to be happy. Thank you for pointing that out; I needed a reality check.

With you my heart will always stay. With you my thoughts will be every day. You remain to be the one that I regret letting get away. Why didn't I say what I needed to say? You are the one I will always use my wishes on. You are the one I will always wish was never gone. I'll constantly wonder what went wrong. I'll forever think of what I could've did that was never done.

I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most.

I hate you...and then I love you...it's like I want to throw you off a cliff....then rush to the bottom to catch you



Even if my heart should call out your name in the rain. Even if these arms should want to embrace you again. And even if I’m all cried out and no longer in pain... I’ll never fall in love that way again.

You said you couldnt stand to see my heart broken
... so when you broke it, did you close your eyes?

Try not to wonder about what might have been, ‘cause that was then and we have taken different roads. We can’t go back again, there’s no use giving in. And there’s no way to know, what might have been.

Loving is so short and forgetting so long.

Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime

I wish I never said good bye... I wish I never let it die... but I did, and now all I want to do is cry

Things just keep getting better and better, eh?





Well, now it's time for me to lock myself up in my room, and cry my eyes out.





But before I leave:

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Alright, now that that's over with..





See you later, love.

Labels: crap, depression and tears, family, friends, friends and laughter, love thing, relapse, RENT, school

I'm creatively drained today so I'm not up for updating. So, I'll re-direct you guys to my Multiply site 'coz the pictures I uploaded pretty much says what's been going on with me.





Check out the Paskuhan pics and the abum with my new henna tattoo in it. So...off you go! Whoosh!





I don't know when I'll be able to update again 'coz I'm off to Manila tomorrow to celebrate Christmas with my relatives there. But I promise to do so as soon as I can, okay?




Enjoy the holidays, love!

LSS OF THE DAY: "LA VIE BOHEME"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

Uh-huh. You ain't gettin' that outta my system, baby. RENT IS FOR LIFE!





So anyway, the situation in the classroom hasn't changed yet, as if stuff like that evaporates overnight, huh? If only it were that easy then life would be so much easier. Our class president tried talking to us about it but we decided that we reall wouldn't go. I feel kinda sorry for her, since she's the one who's really showing that she wants us to go. but the rest? *scoff* Whatever.





And some of them just love to back-stab us. Go on, baby. Give it your best shot; you think that we'll back down on our decision and bow before you? You are so goddamn wrong. You think that your all that; well I've got news for you, sister: this isn't YOUR world where people follow your every move. We have our opinions too, and if you really respect us, you'd shut up. You'll regret the day that you ever messed with us, you EVIL WITCH.





I forgot to mention on my last post that we had an activity in English that day where we'd take a piece of paper, divide it in two, write on one side: "GOOD POINTS" and on the other side: "AREAS TO IMPROVE", tape in to our back and let people sign it. It was pretty fun, although I noticed that my friends didn't ask the people from the MAJORITY to sign theirs, and I was pretty sure that, given the way they've been treating us lately, they'd write down stuff that didn't mean anything. When it was over, I looked at my paper, and I laughed out loud. Why? Here's why:

AREAS TO IMPROVE:

Bad Tagalog

LOVELIFE

I swear, I was laughing my ass off! The "bad tagalog" part, I embrace whole-heartedly, but lovelife? LOVELIFE? I don't even have one to begin with so what's there to improve? But whoever wrote that, sure made my day.





Then on Friday, we watched the PASKULAY show because Jave was in it. Me, Janel, Meg, Sarah and Margot stayed but Judith and Iris had to leave early. As we sat on those steel benches, waiting for the show to start, some guys asked if they could sit with us. I was busy setting Janel's camera on self-timer so I didn't notice them until I came around to them and saw them already sitting there eating McDonald's. We were taking lots and lots of pictures while they were eating and we pretty much ignored them for awhile. One of them started talking to us and then another one joined in. When they were done, they left and we had the bench to ourselves once more. And a little later, two of them came back and started talking to us. We lamost forgot aboutthe show and we ende up talking to them the whole time; we even transferred to the field and sat on the grass to continue our conversations. It was already nine in the evening when we finally parted ways with our new friends: Jhay and Carlos, both freshmen, from Engineering.





Trent went whack that same night so I had him fixed yesterday in SM North Edsa since that was the only place that I knew of that had a Nokia store in it (Trent still has a warranty; it would be such a shame if I wasted money trying to have him repaired somewhere else). He had to be re-formatted. I went back to my dorm after that and I changed my clothes and went to meet with my friends in Mini-Stop because we had to go to Marikina for the football centennial thing. Since I didn't have a phone, I didn't know that they changed the location of the meeting place; so I was waiting for nearly an hour when I finally plucked up the courage to ask a fellow customer if I could use his phone to house my sim card. The first one just laughed at me; the second one didn't even hesitate to lend his phone to me, even though it was already low on battery. I finally made it to the LRT tation in Legarda where Meg and Sarah were waiting for me.





We got off at Cubao, and to kill time while waiting for Iris, we went to FULLY BOOKED. I saw sooooooo many Uncle John's Bathroom Readers there and I wanted to buy them all. If my sister was there, I bet she'd drag my Mom there too. When Iris came, we took a jeep going to Marikina.





When we got to the Marikina Sports Complex, there weren't a lot of people. So we bought food, sat down on the bleachers, took lots of pictures, watched the games, took lots of pictures, cheered for the teams, took lots of pictures and...well, you get the idea.





We had to leave around past eight because we didn't want to miss the LRT. Sarah and I had to pray that the gates of UST were still open or else we'd have to pass through Lacson, which is sooooo dark and creepy; plus, a lot of hold-up cases have been reported in that area. Thankfully, one of the gates was still open but we had to pass through a dark UST and Sarah kept on jumping 'coz she thought she "saw" something. We made it to Dapitan without any other problem and I made it safely to my cave.





The strange thing about not having a cell phone, I don't realize what time it is since I always check my phone. While I was dancing, I checked the time on Tony and it was already past midnight.





This morning, I went straight to SM North Edsa to claim Tony, then I went to Fairview; and I'm still here.





I invited Grizzly Bear to Paskuhan, and he agreed! But he said that he won't stay very long; that's okay. As long as he comes; too bad I can't do my smileys.





I must be off. Sorry if my post isn't organized; I'm kinda in a hurry.





I'll see you later, love!

Labels: friends, friends and laughter, relapse, RENT, school, school woes

LSS OF THE DAY: "OUT TONIGHT"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

Uh-huh. I now have a name for what I'm going through: THE RENT SONG SYNDROME; you like?





Smileys. Miss them.





Classes got suspended because of the strike so now I'm here in Netopia typing my assignment in History. So in a way, it's like a blessing ni disguise; at least I don't have to wake up at an unearthly hour tomorrow just to do it.





Okay, so this Christmas party thing..WHAT THE HELL?! I swear, if they blame us for whatever they could think of, they'll finally see the worst side of me.





What the heck am I talking about?





The thing is, our class officers want to have a Christmas party; we would have been okay with it, if they actually listened to what we wanted. Sure, they ask us what we want, but do they actually listen? Hell no. They have this big group of friends on one side of the room, while we're on the other side of the room. And what they want, they get. They completely ignore us. I dunno who said it, but they dubbed their side as the "MAJORITY" while we are known as the "CULTURAL MINORITY". How pathetic, and not to mention degrading and insulting, is that?





And one of them said, "We want to have a Christmas party becuase we want to celebrate it as a class". Honey, look around; do you think that our class is united? Or are you too plastic to admit that your only saying that to put up a good front?





We would have been okay with everything if you didn't just listen to your inner circle. Your not the only group that breathes inside that classroom; in case you haven't noticed, you didn't include the OTHER HALF of the class in your votes and whatever. YOU people voted yourselves as class officers, whatever YOU want gets followed. And do you think that just because we don't speak up we don't care? If only you saw the looks on our faces I bet you'd say otherwise. And besides, we've tried talking to you, but you just wouldn't listen, so we didn't bother anymore.





I'm not talking about just one person; there are a lot of them.






And a while ago, when class was dismissed, someone said that we shouldn't go out yet because the party still had to be planned. Then someone said that whoever wasn't going to attend the party may leave; so we got up and made our way to the door. Apparently, some people thought that we didn't hear the "stay to plan for the party" part so they repeated it; and then someone else repeated the "you can go if your not coming to the party" thing. I saw the looks on their faces; they looked a bit surprised. I bet they haven't had anyone walk out on them before, and I'm glad we did.





If they ask us why we didn't want to go, they'd better be prepared for a very long speech. They have it coming. And I'm actually thinking of some very good curse words that'll leave their noses bleeding. How sweet that would be.





I'm being mean, I know. But I'm just so effing mad at them. They need to be brought back to earth. Just because they were given their positions, (or rather, they chose THEMSELVES for that position) doesn't mean that they could abuse their powers. They have responsibilities too, you know.





I'm sorry for this "hate post", but I just had to let it out. Me and my friends already had this conversation earlier; Sarah was still fuming when we separated. And I'm sure that the MAJORITY will be talking about this. And come on, as if they're gonna miss us. They have a huge group and they only talk to us when they need something. Plastic, much?





*sigh* Okay, I should stop now. I still have an assignment to do. And I apologize if I didn't make a lot of sense; I'm still upset.





Until next time, love!

Labels: dirty politics, peeves, relapse, RENT, school, school woes

LSS OF THE DAY: "SANTA FE"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

Sooooooo not gonna get over it; tough luck. And I am never going to get over Jesse L. Martin's voice as well as Adam Pascal's (here we go again)





I miss my smileys!!!*cries*





As always, I was a little pissed at some people yesterday; same issue: they can't keep their mouths shut. Our professor was already boiling mad but did they stop? Hell no! And some of them eve had the nerve to try and shut everybody up but then they'd be the first ones to start talking anyway. Shit.





(I don't normally curse; that's how mad I am).





When class dismissed we listened to the UST Singers perform in the Quadricentennial park; that improved my mood a little bit.





Then we went to the front of the Main Building and watched the spotlights move across the sky; first the laser, now spotlights? And I thought we were on cost-cutting *ahem!* (Simon, are you starting to rub off on me?) Speaking of the devil, we waited for him while we were there; when he came, he was about to complain about something when I stopped him in mid-sentence. I told him that I didn't want to absorb more negative energy or else I'll go insane (when he complains, he COMPLAINS).





I just missed a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity; they announced that they were going to have an on-the-spot essay writing contest entitled: Remembering the Holocaust. And get this, the grand prize winner gets to go to Israel and be the Philippine representative of the World Youth Congress. I really wanted to join, but I had class at the time of the contest. As tempting as it sounded, I had to put my studies first. I'm sure there will be more opportunities coming my way soon enough.






Looks like I won't be going home this weekend; we're gonna attend the centennial celebration of the football federation in Marikina.





Speaking of football...we had our first practice game yesterday. It was pretty hot and by the time we got to the part of the field that was assigned to us, we were already sweating. All that running and kicking and passing sure wore us out, but we had fun. Now, my thighs are a wee bit sore; I can't walk very fast. Our professor forgot to let us do our warm-ups. Oh well. That's that.






I'm off, again. I'll miss you, love!

LSS OF THE DAY: "TAKE ME OR LEAVE ME"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

Like I said, I love it to death. Even my cousin was laughing at me for being stuck on that movie for so long.





And just like yesterday, no smileys. I'm in the school library using up my free internet access.





Sometimes I still wonder if they really grew up at all; last semester they were so darn noisy that I just wanna punch the living daylights out of them. Everytime they sit together, all else becomes nothing but murmurs and whispers because of them; they talk so loudly! It's not my fault that I care about passing my subjects and they don't.





Once again, I am hooked on FanFiction. Dramione rules!






Whoever want to exchange links with me, please link me and I promise to link you back as soon as I can. Remind me, okay?





Oh, and one more thing before I go:

GRIZZLY BEAR!!!

'Til later, love!

Labels: annoyance, FanFic, friends, RENT, school, school woes

LSS OF THE DAY: "GOODBYE LOVE"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

I don't think I am EVER gonna get over this coz I love it to death! Adam Pascal, darling, my love for life. *looks around at the people staring* ...what?





Okay, enough day-dreaming. *crash* Grrr. I hate it when that happens.





So sad. No smileys *cries*





Remember when I said that I was going to the mall yesterday? I did go, and as I was waiting for the jeep that will pass by my dorm, I thought, "How far is it from here to there?". So, guess what? I walked; yes, I walked. From SM San Lazaro to Laong Laan. As I was walking, I could feel the stares of some of the people I was waiting with; but what do they care, right? And I was walking pretty fast, too since I've gotten so used to walking with my Dad (who's a pretty tall man so you can only imagine the strides he takes) so I'm stuck to speed-walking. After about ten minutes, or even less, I reached the street which was behind my dorm. I didn't think that it was that near! And to think that I've been wasting money on taking a jeep when I could just walk. Oh well.





Last night, Janel threw a party for her eighteenth birthday at Betty's behind Sto. Domingo Church along Quezon Avenue. I met up with Meg, Iris, Albert and Jigo in UST and we left together. We had to walk a little bit but we didn't mind. Our other classmates were already there when we arrived so we passed the time laughing our asses off about..well, everything. Took loads of pictures and made complete fools of ourselves. Our table was the noisiest and we stayed that way through the whole party. Janel came out, and I swear, she looked like a living doll! She was so cute!





First came the eighteen candles; Iris, Jan, Bea, Sarah and Judith were part of it. Me and Meg? Well, we'll get to that later.





When her mom announced that it was time to eat, my guy classmates jumped to their feet and beat us at the line; Albert even said that they might have purged before going there just to make room for all that food. You know how it is in some parties, when there's at least one or two of the dishes that doesn't really taste good? But there, every single dish was delicious! I'm not exaggerating or anything; ask the people I went with and they'll agree. I couldn't believe it; most of us went back for second, and third, helpings. When the dessert came, our pants were so tight that most of us couldn't get up anymore. But some, mostly the guys, decided to go up anyway and grab the sansrival that they were serving. Damn, those boys could eat! And even after they ate their sansrivals, they still got dessert from the chocolate fountain; I only nipped a bite from Albert's since I was so darn full.





After a while, when our tummies felt a teeny bit lighter, came the next part of the program; instead of the traditional eighteen roses, they decided to make it more fun. So instead, they made it to eighteen SHOTS. Yup, y'heard me; shots. And that's where me and Meg come in. We talk on the microphone to say something to Janel, grab a glass of white wine, toast to her, and down it. It was pretty good; even after we were done with our glass we kept on asking for re-fills. I had three glasses; Meg had four.





Then came the dancing. I swear, you wouldn't find any group that's crazier than ours. I could see how the other people were staring at us 'coz we were so rowdy and absolutely noisy. But hey, we were having fun! I think the wine started getting to me after a while so I had to sit down. I'm not very good with alcohol; sure, I drank four bottles of beer last March, but after that I swore not to drink more than two because of my darn allergies. And so far, I haven't touched a single beer bottle and I am proud of myself for that.





Bea was making a big fuss over me and Albert; oh, you know, the usual: a single girl and a single guy, sitting beside each other, drinking white wine and having a blast and that would usually lead to yadda yadda yadda..puh-lease! That is so cliche! As if I haven't had enough of those in my life. I'm not searching for anyone, and neither is he; we both just got off of our previous relationships and the pain is still pretty fresh. He's having trouble getting over his ex, and I'm--well, working on it. If I do get into another relationship, it's not bound to happen any time soon. I'm not in a rush.





A little later, they gave us the souveniers which we little plastic things that light up and blink, and they gave us these really cute cupcakes that looked so pretty that I couldn't imagine myself eating it.





We left before eleven because we were so exhausted. Meg, Albert and I rode on a taxi; Meg got down first and Albert rode with me to the dorm. My feet were killing me but I didn't mind. I stumbled onto bed and lay down.





But did I sleep? No. Jan and I were still talking; we've been talking for almost a whole day. I wasn't able to talk to him on Friday night because of that little squabble we had during the meeting. So, in a way, we were making up for lost time, even though it was only for a day. I enjoy talking to him; he makes me laugh since we have the silliest conversations. And we talked until almost five in the morning; I fell asleep 'coz I don't think my eyes could keep themselves open anymore. And when I woke up, guess who I was talking to? Him, again. Until now we're still talking.





Something is so wrong with Trent. I need to have him fixed tomorrow after class.





And by the way, the pictures from Janel's birthday will be posted next weekend, along with the other pictures that I promised to post.





I'm reading FanFiction again; I can't believe how long it's been since I last read some of my favorite stories. I can't even remember which chapter I stopped in. i admire the people who cam write stories like that. Although I'm currently working on a story of my own, I haven't even written half of it. The thing is, I know the twists, I know what's gonna happen to the characters and I know how it's gonna end, but I just can't find the way to actually lead them to it. I am so gonna work my ass off this Christmas break over this story, if its the last thing I do.





Christmas..





I miss James. I want to see him again. He's been weaving in and out of my dreams lately, but I still long to reach out and actually touch him, even though it's no longer possible. Sometimes I still wonder why God had to take him away from me so soon; but now I know why: He wanted James to be my guardian angel, that way he'll always be there to protect me, unlike when he was alive we'd hardly see each other. Now, he has every reason to make sure that nothing happens to me. That's my buddy. And I love him for that.





I am currently in Fairview because there is absolutely no way in hell that I'm gonna spend another night in my cave alone. And besides, I get free internet access here. *sneaky*





Well, I'm off to reading more FanFiction; and I'm still talking to Jan. He's worrying about something.





Catch you later, love!

Labels: ADAM LOVE, FanFic, friends, friends and laughter, issues, peeves, RENT

LSS OF THE DAY: "NO DAY BUT TODAY"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

MAJOR relapse, love.




I can't use my smileys. Boo-hoo.




Sorry for the very delayed update; I've been pretty busy. It's not that I'm forgetting to update, on the contrary, I always make it a point to think about updating every once in awhile, but due to the present circumstances, I just can't. But I appreciate the fact that you guys keep on checking in for updates; that makes me feel very loved. So, a very big THANK YOU to all of you!





I guess the really great thing that highlighted my week was my trip to Bilibid Prison in Muntinlupa last Tuesday. No, we didn't get arrested (although all of us were already eighteen and above so we have every reason to get arrested), we were actually there to teach the inmates; inmates that were captured when they weren't even twenty-one. We left the school a little late 'coz the driver was taking his oh-so-sweet time, but we didn't mind. That gave us the opportunity to get to know each othee better; there were at least three or four represntatives from each course in my college and I didn't know some of them. On the way there, we were laughing and talking about everything and nothing; and they even made fun of me! They are so lucky that I was feeling good that day, otherwise I would have blown up on them; but in a goooooood way.





When we got there, we waited for the others to come because they had to commute since we couldn't fit in the van that we used. Once they arrived, and they did all these check-up things and the guys hadto get stamps on their arms, we went in. We went to this little room-sized building; the inmates started coming in.




We did the getting-to-know-you activity first before we had some real fun. I wish they let me bring my digicam; oh well. We had this activity wherein we say these statements and they have to answer "That's me" or "That's not me"; one of us said: "I am attracted to the opposite sex". One of the inmates said, "That's not me!"; very, very proudly. Man, we got a good laugh from that.




We left around past three; Waki and I still had classes so we had to rush.





Everything else was pretty much a blur after that.




So, moving on, to yesterday. We didn't have classes becuase the professors had to attend a seminar or something. But I had to get to school at nine in the morning because we were supposed to have choir practice; but when I got to the Pax Romana office, no one was there. I thought, "It's still pretty early; maybe they'll be coming in a little late". So I sat down, took out Tony and read the book that I brought with me. After twenty minutes or so, Lance showed up and told me that practice was cancelled because Kuya Pao (in charge of the choir) had to go home to his province. Lance told me that ke sent messages to us the night before, but by some stroke of bad luck, I didn't get it because Globe was going whack. We talked for awhile before I met up with Sarah outside; her group was going to interview some people for our assignment in BES.




When we were almost done, one of my classmates said that Jade was looking for me. I texted her and she said that we were going to interview the Editor-in-Chief of the Varsitarian that day; again, she said that they texted me the night before, so I didn't recieve it. I went to the Tan Yan Kee building and waited with them. The EIC of the Varsi was so talkative! But he made us laugh once in awhile which was pretty good.



After the interview, I met up with Sarah again in the carpark. Then Meg texted me and asked me if I could accompany her to do her interview with the CSC President (Central Student Council); I told Sarah and we both met up with her. The guard wouldn't let Sarah in because she was wearing slippers so we went to my dorm, I put on my rubber shoes and she put on my step-ins. When Meg was done, we went to Lovers Lane and took a lot of pictures! I'll upload them the next time I get home.




We went to the AB building afterwards because we had to attend the BehSciFed meeting with the people from the team building seminar in Marikina from last time. It was great to see them all again. Kuya Sherwin and Ate Hannah were being paired up by us and I'm pretty sure they hated us for it. Kuya Benedict looked so wasted so I tried to cheer him up by talking about the Bilibid trip. Kuya Chuckie, playful and funny as always. I love those guys; and I am so gonna miss them when they graduate.




We talked about the theme for the upcoming launching of the Federation. I want a goth theme!




Jan and I were bickering over something. Hahaha!




After the meeting, Sarah, Meg and I went around UST; all the lights! And the laser! Now we know where our tuition fee's going. Again, pictures will be uploaded when I get home.




By the way, according to a very reliable source of mine, Kuya Pao was impressed with how I was able to reach the really high notes during one of our practices, despite me being sick with the colds and all that. Awwww. I so love Kuya Pao now. Hahahaha!





Sorry for the blunt post. My creative juices dried up for some strange reason.





Well, I gotta go. I still have to go to the mall. Anyone want to come with me? Hahahaha!





See you, love!

Labels: BesFed, friends, friends and laughter, patience-test, school, school woes

LSS OF THE DAY: "LA VIE BOHEME"

From: RENT [Movie/Musical]

Uh-oh. It's baaaaaaaaaaack. I missed it, you know. Now you guys better pray that it doesn't last long




I am so annoyed with myself right now; why? Because everytime I hear a date (like, September 19, 2007 or October 3, 2007) the first thing that comes to my mind is: "Romeo and I were still together that time" or "Romeo and I were already broken up at that time". And I think them as if it were the most natural reaction, like a reflex; I mentally scold myself for even thinking such things but I can't stop doing it. Sure, I'm doing better now but I can't help but feel like my heart doesn't want to let go of him no matter how hard I try. I try to avoid looking at our pictures or reminisce on the times we spent together and all that crap but nothing's working.




I got a text message from one of my friends yesterday and I felt like laughing and crying at the same time; the message said:

"Wizard of Oz to Tin Man: So you want a heart? You don't know how lucky you are not to have one"

Call me pathetic for getting so worked up about a single message, I don't care. I'm only human after all.




Sometimes I wish that I never agreed when he asked for another chance; maybe things would have been different. Maybe things would have been easier for me. And sometimes, though I hate to think it, I don't think he really loved me. If he did, well, then maybe--just maybe--we'd still be happy.




But no; LIFE had to get in the way.




*sigh* Oh well. I wish that there's still hope for this broken heart of mine. How I long for the day when someone will pick up the pieces for me and help me nurse it back together. Another disappointment like that would leave me crippled for life




Okay, enough of the drama *wipes away last tear*




I read something on Multiply today that made me very happy; I'll write it here so I hope whoever wrote it doesn't mind:

kasi ganito,.. yesterday i was reading all the blog entries of lui, (i really dont know her, just here in multiply, through her pix, and we're of the same educational system, but she's in manila, and am in baguio)i really love the one she included in her blog. the story of a gurl and a boy.,,hahhaha wala lang trip ko lang..

kanina when i was agen visiting her blog site(kasi ung blogsite niya lagi ko talagang binibisita:idol) i was really looking for that blog, unfortunately it was lost..huhuhu



yah, there's no more man like that man in the story.

(to give u the background of the story)hahahah ang haba..basta ung thought ganito:

may boy at gurl. naguusap sila sa fon.. lovers sila. then akala ng gurl may work cia.. may date sila. susunduin si gurl ni boy ng 7(ata). tapos un. nasundo na si gurl.. may surprise cia kay gurl then blind fold thing.. pumunta sila sa parang lover's lane ung nakikita ung view tapos lumuhod luhod..hahah(corny pero cool).. sabi ni gurl un daw ung lugar kung saan niya sinagot si boy...tapos sabi ni boy yah that's true...pero nga ung tanong.. "will u marry me"..hahahahahhanaiyak daw kunwari si gurl..(ang sayasaya).. tapos un..

sabi ni lui wala na daw ganung lalaki ngaun....may malaking X ung pix nila ng boyfriend niya..hhhuuhuhuhuh.....



yah..i agree with LUI's idea..there's no man like the man in the story.. if there wud someone hu'll do the same for me then THAT WUD BE A MIRACLE

Well, would you look at that? Someone's actually reading my blog! I was so touched. I gave her my new URL as a token of my appreciation. It just goes to show that even though we're from different places, there are other ways to touch each other's lives




I'll be going back to Manila in a few hours. Grr




I guess this will be it for now. I"m not feeling very inspired to write today so I hope you guys'll cut me some slack




Catch yah later, sweetums

Labels: friends, heartbreak, relapse, RENT, school

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LSS OF THE DAY: "EVERY STORY IS A LOVE STORY"

From: AIDA [Musical]

IT'S SO COLD!




Just a few days ago I was beginning to think that the months in the calendar got switched because the weather was so not BER-y; you get what I mean. The sun was always out and the heat could make your clothes stick to you with sweat after just a few minutes. But now, honestly, I haven't shed a single drop of sweat. When I woke up this morning I was freezing so badly; I didn't even use the electric fan last night and I was already wearing pajamas, socks and a long-sleeved shirt. And when I got out of my room the temperature didn't change at all. Now that's what I call cold




I slept so soundly last night that I didn't wake up so early and I am so happy about it; I rarely sleep straight without waking up in the middle of the night. Thank goodness that I was able to sleep like a log




I was so busy last night; I was reading FanFiction while downloading songs, chatting with my cousin, Pao, and my friend, Jan; while uploading videos on YouTube and uploading pictures on Photobucket and texting Albert; talk about multi-tasking, eh?




I still have colds




People are asking about my smileys again; I won't tell you where I got them though. Beh!




It's gonna be Janel's birthday in a few days and her party's coming up soon as well; and I still don't have anything to wear! Help




..wait a sec; if Janel's birthday is in a few days, then that must mean--holy crap! I totally forgot!

IT'S DECEMBER!

I can be so ignorant sometimes




"You guys broke up? Why!?" -- oh, c'mon. As if you haven't heard of that already.




I'm not looking forward to going back to school on Monday. I swear, I just wanna lay down, close my eyes and SLEEP for as long as I can. I think the pressure's finally getting to me..




Too bad I'm not well enough to audition. Oh well. There's always next year




I might edit this post later.

Labels: AIDA, cold, friends, school, school woes