Monday, August 20, 2007
@ 1:01 PM
LSS OF THE DAY: "OUT TONIGHT" FROM THE MOVIE, RENT
Looks like my Tita was right. I can be so single-minded sometimes
There's a little riff happening here at home. And it was all because of a joke, a webcam, and the computer. Its Dad vs. Patsy. This might take awhile. And because I talk to the both of them, all the negative energy that they give out goes to me and honestly, I'm not handling it very well. Its driving me crazy! Pats said that she'll talk to Dad, but not now. Oi!
We'll be going to Hong Kong on the 24th to celebrate Patsy's 13th birthday. I hope nothing happens before then.
I can't believe that Christian Jacoba's brother asked me if he could court me. That is so..ew! He's a nice guy, but I am so not diggin' him
As for the whole thing with Romeo, I've decided to talk to him. We talked it over, and I think I finally got it through that thick head of his that I really don't want us to be friends. I could tell that he got a bit upset about it, but he accepted it. I even told him that I won't be talking to him until I could finally move one; the talk we had was the last I ever said anything to him. It isn't easy forgetting about all the stuff that we went through for almost two years; I'm not telling him to forget about them, just put them aside until he really needs them. I told him that I'll be doing the same thing. I know that it will take me awhile to forget about him, but I'm not in a hurry. I have all the time in the world, and I have a great support system so I'll be okay
ADAM PASCAL AND ANTHONY RAPP SINGING "RENT"
I AM SO OBSESSED! And I am so inlove with Adam (the hot rocker) and Anthony (the geeky but still cute guy). I would love to meet them someday; but I'm pretty sure that'll only happen in my dreams
Speaking of dreams, I've been getting a lot of them for the past couple of days. And all of them were really WEIRD. I just had one last night and it involves some of my family members who are living in Manila. Its kinda hard to expalin, but I think I was dreaming in my dream. Am I making any sense? You know, in my dream, I was asleep and I was also dreaming. Strange, but how cool is that?
Just this morning it was so hot. Now its raining cats and dogs. Strange weather we're having.
ADAM! ANTHONY! ADAM! ANTHONY! ADAM! ANTHONY! ADAM! ANTHONY! ADAM! ANTHONY! ADAM! ANTHONY!
Dad said that I could have his phone when he buys a new one next week. Its a nice unit, but I forgot what unit it is
. Better that than my cellphone now. Its already falling apart and Mom said that she'll give me a new phone for my birthday next year. Well, she won't have to once I get Dad's phone.
Going back to Manila tomorrow. Exams again. Great
Patsy went with Mom and her boyfriend to Manila yesterday and guess what? They bought two boxes of Krispy Kremes for us! Yay! Sugar rush!
I changed the header in my Multiply site. Wanna see?
CLICKIE HERIE PLEASIEWATCH RENT!
Labels: acceptance, emotions, family issues, love thing, past love and new hate, RapPascal, RENT
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
@ 8:50 PM
LSS OF THE DAY: "THE INQUISITION" BY MEL BROOKS
It's so funny! Mel Brooks is a bloody genius! You people gotta watch it! I got the link from YouTube -- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lAVJ9ZyghlA
There's been a change of plan. I'm going to the dorm tomorrow; apparently, my Tita thought that since I have nothing to do there anyway, I might as well stay over for another night and go to the dorm tomorrow. I am so grateful for her suggestion
I woke up this morning, alone, in my cousin's room (she had to leave early because she had classes) and for the first time in a long time, I cried. I cried, and cried, and cried, until I couldn't cry anymore. For the past few weeks I've been dreading my return to Manila. Sure, I have to fulfill my educational requirements so I could have a good life when I get older. But now, now..I'm not so sure if I want to stay here any longer. I've been feeling depressed since June came around; I knew that it was only a matter of time before I leave the comfort and safety of my home and venture into the big city, by myself. I know that I have relatives here who I can lean on, but they aren't there for me all the time, even if they want to. And my friends and family's two hundred kilometers away from me; so, yes, I am alone
.I know that I should be used to it by now; after all, I have spent a whole school year in a dorm where they charge you for everything, a school where they let you go about your business with people just passing you by without a second glance, a curriculum which was harder for me to digest and get into my system, a schedule that sometimes gave me huge problems that I wanted to jump off a building, a heartbreak that threatened to end my life as I know it, and facing people with the most plastic faces I have ever had the priviledge of meeting. I've been through a lot of stuff last year, but all of them were wiped away in an instant after seeing the St. Raymond's building looming threateningly above me during enrollment. I felt so small, insignificant and it felt like the first day of school all over again; where you feel awkward walking down the hallways and too shy to ask for directions to your classroom. So, tomorrow, will be my first day of college, all over again...
I hate to have to go to school tomorrow. I want to go back to Dagupan; but I have to suck it all in and go on. I have no choice. Another long year's waiting to be experienced and told; all I have to do is to fend for myself when its needed and hold my head up high, even if I'm all torn and broken on the inside.
Alright, enough of that crap. Since I had no plans for today, and my last day of freedom, I asked my Tita if I could accompany her when she goes out and she agreed. First we went to the Fort because she had to attend a meeting there; I asked to be dropped off at Bonifacio High Street in Serendra (or is it the other way around?); because, Krispy Kremes was there
. So for a full hour (or more) I stayed there, eating donuts and and drinking Pepsi. When she told me that she was done with the meeting, we went to the place where one of her husband's clients was and she asked me to hand over some documents to the secretary of the client. I had to ask what floor the guy was on because even my Tita wasn't very sure where it was. When they told me where it was, I hopped onto the elevator and slowly made my ascent to the fifth floor. When I got there, I handed over the document to the secretary then she made me write my Tito's name as sender before I went back to the elevator. It took me a moment to realize that I didn't know which floor I came from. Since there were other people in the elevator with me I didn't want to act like I was new to that place so I just pushed one of the buttons at the bottom of all the other buttons and waited. When I came off the floor, I realized that I was in the wrong floor; so I waited for the next elevator down. When it came, I pushed another button, hoping that that was it. But the moment that the doors opened, I knew that I was still in the wrong floor; because I got off at the parking lot which was so NOT the floor from where I came from. I stepped out of the elevator anyway and acted as if I was looking for someone as the door clattered shut behind me. I nervously pushed the UP button and waited for the next elevator. When it finally came, I pushed the button below the parking lot button; and to my immense relief, I was on the right floor. I ran outside, grateful that I didn't have to spend the rest of my life trying out the other buttons and live the rest of my life there. I related the whole story to my Tita and we just laughed about it because she had the same experience before. Then we drove off to the IBC-5 station because she had to talk to someone; I waited for her in the car. About twenty minutes later she came back and we drove back home.So, this may be my last post for awhile. As I said in my previous post, I will still answer your tags and I'll update from time to time, but not as much as before. I will miss this. Oh well. Time to snap back to reality.
By the way, one of my classmates from high school sent me this message just awhile ago:
"You know your in love when you walk around with that goofy smile and you can't help but hug everyone.
Life's supposed to be difficult. If it wasn't, we would never learn anything.
If you want crappy things to stop happening to you, then stop accepting crap and demand somethin' more"
True
. I just discovered the use of the blockquote tag yesterday. Me so slow! Hahahaha!Alrightie then, I'll stop now. 'Til next time everyone. 'Til then, keep hittin' my tagboard and keep on leaving comments and I'll answer you guys as soon as I can
Take care everyone!
Labels: acceptance, depression and tears, hiatus, KRISPY KREMES, Manila life