LSS OF THE DAY: "WRITTEN IN THE STARS"

From: AIDA [Musical]

First "RENT", now "AIDA"; you guys better pray that this doesn't go on for long



*sigh* It's really over; it's been three weeks since we broke up but it feels like we just ended it today. Romeo and I had a long talk just awhile ago; lots of exclamaition points and question marks included so I was kinda imagining that we were screaming at each other. I don't know why, but we're having a bit of difficulty in "moving on" and I think that we finally got on each other's nerves. We agreed that we wouldn't talk for awhile; no seeing each other, no contact whatsoever. Needless to say, we parted on a sour note; partly my fault but I don't give a damn anymore.



I'm being stupid. He's a guy for crying out loud! MY WORLD ISN'T SUPPOSED TO REVOLVE AROUND HIM.



But why is it so hard to forget about him? Is it because I defended him from my parents? Is it because we were together for two years (minus the six or seven break-ups during that time; we broke up for a lot of reasons but I'd rather not discuss them here)? Is it because of everything that we've been through together? Is it because he was the guy with whom I had the longest relationship with? If those aren't the reasons, then why? Why, why, why?!



I want to forget about him. I want to see him without wishing that he was mine again. I want to smile when I hear that he has a new girlfriend instead of seething with jealousy. I want to see him without going weak in the knees. I want to think of him without crying my eyes out. I want to laugh at our memories together instead of longing to revive them once again. I want to be able to look him in the eye and tell him how happy I am for him instead of avoiding him everytimne we happen to meet by chance. I want to talk to him and hang out with him as we used to do when we were still friends. But, for some reason, I don't think that we will ever be friends again. We've been through so much and its pointless to end by just being friends.




If I agreed that we'll be friends, then to him its like I said, "I'm still going to wait for you"; when I turned him down on his "friend" offer, its like I said, "I've had enough. You've hurt me more times than you can ever imagine".



The thing that I don't like about myself is that when I do fall in love, I REALLY FALL IN LOVE. It took me a year to get over my first boyfriend even though we only lasted a week! And we lasted for two years; how long will it take for me to get over him?




I need your opinion. Do you think I did the right thing in telling him that we will never be friends? Or do you think I should have told him that I'm not ready for it yet? Did I do the right thing? Did HE do the right thing? Please tell me what you think. Don't flood my tagboard; use the "Comments" thingy below this post. Any feedback would be very much appreciated. If your gonna give me lecture or something, my e-mail address is on the right side of this page. Be sure to make your subject related to this or else I'll delete it right away.




And coincidentally, my LSS today matches my mood.

I'm here to tell you we can never meet again
Simple really, isn't it, a word or two and then
A lifetime of not knowing where or how or why or when
You think of me or speak of me and wonder what befell
The someone you once loved so long ago so well

Never wonder what I'll feel as living shuffles by
You don't have to ask me and I need not reply
Every moment of my life from now until I die
I will think or dream of you and fail to understand
How a perfect love can be confounded out of hand

Is it written in the stars
Are we paying for some crime
Is that all that we are good for
Just a stretch of mortal time
For some God's experiment
In which we have no say
In which we're given paradise
But only for a day

Nothing can be altered, there is nothing to decide
No escape, no change of heart, no anyplace to hide

You are all I'll ever want, but this I am denied
Sometimes in my darkest thoughts, I wish I'd never learned
What it is to be in love and have that love returned

Is it written in the stars
Are we paying for some crime
Is that all that we are good for
Just a stretch of mortal time

For some God's experiment
In which we have no say
In which we're given paradise
But only for a day

Damn. I feel like crying again. As if I haven't cried enough when we were talking.

"Love is like a narcotic. At first it brings the euphoria of complete surrender. The next day, you want more. You're not addicted yet, but you like the sensation, and you like you can still control things. You think about that person you love for two minutes, then forget them for three hours.
But then you gte used to that person, and you begin to be completely dependent on them. Now you think about him for three hours and forget him for two minutes. If he's not there, you feel like an addict who can't get a fix. And just as addicts steal and humiliate themselves to get what they need, you're willing to do anything for love".

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"If pain must come, may it come quickly. Because I have a life to live, and I need to live it in the best way possible. If he has to make a choice, may he make it now. Then I will either wait for him or forget him.
Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering."


- Paulo Coelho, "By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept".

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Labels: AIDA, love thing

LSS OF THE DAY: "A STEP TOO FAR"

From: AIDA [Musical]

Wow. For the first time in -- uhh -- three months, I have an LSS that's not from "RENT"; I bet some people are saying "Whew! Finally!". But of course, I still love it; and ADAM PASCAL. Though it really doesn't make that much of a difference 'coz Adam Pascal also did AIDA



My sister and I watched "STARDUST" this afternoon; I absolutely loved it! Go watch!

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CLAIRE DANES AND CHARLIE COX; What happens to them? Read the book or watch the movie

I got the summary from http://www.starpulse.com/Movies/Stardust/Summary. I'm too lazy to type it myself.

A charmingly naïve boy from the English village of Wall travels to a magical, mythical world in search of the falling star that will help him win the heart of his true love in this fantasy adventure starring Charlie Cox, Claire Danes, Robert De Niro, Michelle Pfeiffer, Ricky Gervais, and Sienna Miller. For hundreds of years the massive cobblestone barrier that surrounds the sleepy English hamlet of Wall has kept the citizens of the village safe and secure from the malevolent supernatural forces that stir just outside its perimeter. When dashing Tristran Thorn (Cox) promises the fairest girl in the village, Victoria (Miller), that he will prove his love by bestowing her with a genuine falling star, his daring mission sends him on an adventure far outside the comfortable confines of Wall. In order to find the fallen star, Tristran will have to ascend the wall and venture deep into the forbidden heart of the fantastical realm known as Stormhold. Upon discovering that the meteorite he sought was in fact a beautiful girl named Yvaine (Danes), who has stumbled though space and is now being pursued by the King of Stormhold's (Peter O'Toole) sons (who long to use her cosmic powers to lay claim to the throne), Tristran vows to protect the otherworldly visitor at all costs. But the King's sons aren't the only ones in search of the luminous Yvaine; fearsome witch Lamia (Pfeiffer) has become convinced that the young girl's power can help her to achieve eternal youth and beauty. As Tristran makes his way through Stormhold on a mission to bring the star back to Wall, he will encounter a series of spectacular characters and creatures that will lead him to a fate he never imagined.

I was only able to read half of the book coz I borrowed it from my cousin. But my sister was happy 'coz for ONCE, I don't know how its going to end; she kept on reminding me that almost every book that I've read gets turned into a movie so I know everything about it.



When it comes out on DVD, I am so gonna buy it!



I finished reading "The Guardian" last night; I already started with "By The River Piedra I saw Down and Wept". Nice title. And the first part made me cry a bit 'coz I can relate to what the character was going through. *sigh* Love..



All for now

Labels: ADAM LOVE, AIDA, movie mania, reviews

LSS OF THE DAY: "SEASONS OF LOVE" FROM "RENT"

"Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes.."



Went to Domincan again; watched the game between the DS Alumni and the parents. And we won!; I was their main cheerleader

CONGRATS TO THE DOMINICAN PARTICIPANTS OF UP SUBOL! WE ARE ALL SO VERY PROUD OF YOU!

The color of the day was black; almost everyone was wearing black. Well, almost all of the outsiders were wearing it; me being one of them of course. And somehow, I felt younger today coz I was hanging out with the batch of students that were a year younger than me. So fun!



Something's been bothering me since I went to DS on Wednesday; I'm starting to suspect that "someone" is starting to like me. I've been observing him for awhile but I'm not going to make any conclusions just yet. But the mere thought of it scares the hell out of me



Mom bought me three books; "The Guardian" by Nicholas Sparks, "By The River Piedra I Sat Down And Wept" by Paulo Coelho and "The Secret" by Rhonda Byrne. I've already started with "The Guardian".



I fell asleep with a smile on my lips last night; but I was haunted by a nightmare in my dreams.



Why is moving on so hard to do?. He's all I think about. I really hope I could get over him soon.

Labels: black, books, friends, love thing, RENT

LSS OF THE DAY: "WILL I?" FROM THE MOVIE, "RENT"

TODAY IS ADAM PASCAL'S BIRTHDAY!



I had a great time while watching the Intrams in Domincan this afternoon; I had fun cheering for the teachers and parents. Poor Ma'am Valle. Hahahaha!



Some of my classmates from high school were there too; I wasn't able to see some of them yesterday so a lot of hugs and kisses went around. Its always great to see the again; nothing beats the years we spent together.



And of course, the college freshmen were there; I'm pretty close to their batch. As I leaned back and listened to their stories about how they were coping with college life so far, I couldn't help but smile and think back to the times when I was just like them nearly a year ago. I'm very proud of them and I can't wait to hear what they have to say next year. Now a lot of the seniors were asking me how I'm taking it; I smiled and told them that everything's okay once you get past the first school year.



I took pictures of Sister Althea!

How cute is she?

Ronn said "hi" to me as I was passing by on my way to the canteen with Louise; we just ate some really burnt peanuts so we had to get something to get rid of the nasty after-taste. When I said "hi" back, I knew that Romeo's eyes were watching me; I felt it. I guess he was hoping that I would look at him and say "hi" to him, too. But unfortunately for him, that didn't happen



When he did say "hi" to me, I just nodded my head and avoided his gaze. I'm not ready to face him just yet.



I just remembered a song that my sister let me hear some time ago; by Carrie Underwood. The chorus really hit me.

Oh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Damn. I could hear and feel my heart breaking again

Labels: ADAM LOVE, country love, emotions, friends and laughter, love thing, pictures, RENT

LSS OF THE DAY: "GOODBYE LOVE" FROM THE MOVIE, "RENT"

...what?



I met up with Tita Meg on Monday and I had a great time talking to her. She told me so many stories of when she was young and when my grandmother was still alive; I wish I could tell them all but unfortunately I'm feeling a little down. Maybe next time



Enrolment was HELL. We waited in line for more than three hours and in the rain too! My feet were killing me and we had to have our registration forms xeroxed for NSTP; we finished around near 6 in the evening. And I had to wait in traffic while going to the bus station; and I got wet. Darn rain



I got this "Spell Your Name" thing from Simon; try it!. I spelled my name in bold.

A - likes to drink (well, kinda)

B - likes people

C - wild and crazy

D - great perosnality

E - good kisser

F - people adore you

G - decisive

H - good looks and personality

I - loves everyone (i seldom hate anyone; well, rarely)

J - lives life for fun

K - silly

L - loved by everyone (ask around; maybe there are some people who don't love me)

M - makes duties fun

N - drop-dead sexy

O - best in bed

P - popular

Q - hypocrite

R - supercrazy

S - is to fall in love with (really? who knew?)

T - loyal

U - loves to chill (I AGREEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!)

V - not judgmental

W - broad minded

X - assertive

Y - best girlfriend/boyfriend

Z - always ready

What does your name spell?

Went to Dominican this afternoon; Kathleen won't stop bugging me into going. I saw my classmates from high school and I had fun talking to them; I can't believe how much they've changed. Not in a bad way though.



I asked Nicole a not-so-personal question; and I was surprised at his answer. Actually, he made my day



I tried to avoid Romeo, and I succeeded



I had fun talking to Cledan and Nicole



I just got the biggest shock of my life; until now I don't think it completely sunk in or something



I am STILL obsessing over Draco and Hermione



I'm still exhausted.

Labels: friends and laughter, RENT, revelations, school woes

LSS OF THE DAY: "NO DAY BUT TODAY", FROM THE MOVIE, "RENT"

Do I have to say anything about this? Nah



I'm going to Manila tomorrow morning for our enrollment on Tuesday; I can't believe we have to wear our uniforms. And I'm gonna meet with one of my aunts.



If you are a die-hard Draco-Hermione fan like me, I suggest you check this site. Its so cool! And the moderators are really nice. I also included this in "MY EXITS" on the navigation bar.

http://www.freewebs.com/fire-and-ice07

Check out the pictures of Draco and Hermione; so cute!



I even got to chat with them last night; that's why I stayed up until three in the morning but it was so worth it. They're from the U.S. and another one was from New Mexico; how cool is that?



Not much to say.



Be back on Tuesday!

Labels: bored, DraMione, RENT, school woes

LSS OF THE DAY: "I'LL COVER YOU" FROM THE MOVIE, "RENT"

Yesterday, it was the sad version; now its the happy version. I love listening Jesse L. Martin and Wilson Jermaine Heredia; their voices are perfect

My current desktop:

What can I say? I'm proud of my school





My current wall paper on my cell phone:





I LOVE HIM TO DEATH!

If I find an even BETTER picture of him, I am so gonna take it!

Glorietta2 got bombed this afternoon and I'm scared as hell; so far we haven't gotten any news if any of our family members were there (my tita and her two kids often go there) and we are so thankful.



I am loving The Eagles. They may be a little old, but the are still the best; try listening to their song "How Long".



I am still obsessing over the Draco-Hermione pairings in FanFiction; good thing I'm not the only one



Uhh..excuse me? Romeo who? Next!. I can be so mean sometimes; but nah, I'm kidding; I'm still not over him. But I'm trying; it takes time to forget about these things but I'm not rushing 'coz there's no need to rush in the first place. As of now, Tony's my man; well, he's always been my man



I watched the movie "Cassanova" starring Heath Ledger and I must say that I underestimated that movie; it was quite entertaining. I love the way Sienna Miller portrayed her character; and Heath Ledger was absolutely perfect for the role!



Okay, I'm off to reading more FanFics!

Labels: ADAM LOVE, FanFic, goin' oldies, movie mania, RENT, shitty, TONY LOVE