Friday, July 13, 2007
@ 10:53 PM
LSS OF THE DAY: "TODAY FOR YOU, TOMORROW FOR ME" FROM THE MOVIE, RENT
I'm not gonna stop and you know it
It's been one hell of a week and I got so much to say to you all!
MONDAY, JULY 9 - I don't remember a lot about what happened during class but I do remember what happened after class. I was so hungry when we got dismissed so I dragged Meg with me to Dapitan where I ate in Chowking. Iris joined us after awhile. Then we went back to school because Meg had to accompany Kuya Lawrence in the AB Debate booth for the Org. Fair. We hung out there for awhile, talking, laughing, taking pictures of Sir Olivar; and then, I saw Kuya JC coming out of the building. I swear, I wanted to jump and scream. He's gotten a little thinner but he still looks good
. I could only imagine how red my cheeks were at that time and Meg and Iris' didn't make it easier with their teasings. When he was gone I was able to breathe a little. Then we saw Dylan Ababou on our other side! I went nuts! I asked Meg if it was okay if she would ask him to have his picture taken with me. I was shaking like a leaf when I approached him. He was so tall, and so cute
. We were so close to each other, and I mean really close.
Me was very happy
. He even thanked me!. So anyway, after that "Ababou craze", we all turned our attention to Kuya Lawrence. Then Janel came by and she was hysterical; she likes Kuya Lawrence. Actually, she's liked him since he became our classmate in PGC last semester. She was shaking so badly and her hands were going cold; even Kuya Lawrence showed a little concern which only made her go crazy even more. After while, he left and Sarah and Mau came by. Took some pictures and stuff before heading home.That night, I talked to Romeo. At this point I got a lot of explaining to do. When we broke up a few months ago, I thought that it was really over between us; my world came crashing down when we broke up and I was unconsolable. The reason for our break-up was pretty clear; he didn't want us to be so far apart from each other and I understood that. Long-distance relationships are pretty hard to maintain. Then he asked if I could wait until the time that he graduated and when he would move to Manila, that way we could be closer. I said that I'd try; but that night, I don't know, I just felt as if I couldn't take it anymore. I've been debating with myself for the past few weeks on whether or not I should let go. But ultimately, I made my decision. I told him that I was letting go; it broke my heart to say it, but I had to. He didn't want me to let go so he asked for another chance. Another chance? I didn't know what else to say so I told him that I'll think about it.
TUESDAY, JULY 10 - P.E. day. It was so tiring! But we had more fun this time than the last time. Our professor gave us easier stuff to do, so thank goodness for that!
If only I look that good in real life...
I was really touched with the stuff they said and I'll never forget that day. They really surprised me; Meg and Sarah left the classroom for awhile so Iris, Janel and I stayed behind. When they came in I didn't even notice that Meg was hiding it behind her back; I didn't even suspect anything when she passed me and did a complete rotation around me (she was hiding it behind her back so I wouldn't see it). Finally, she sat down and beckoned all of us to come nearer. She laid it face-down on her lap so I didn't know what it was. I thought it was a poster for a student organization or something but when she finally gave it to me, I read it over and over again just to make sure that I wasn't going blind or anything. And sure enough, that was it. I was in tears when I realized that they made it for me. I love those guys
. I am gonna love them forever. When Mark passed by he asked what was all the fuss about; when Meg told him he was like, "Oh yeah! Your birthday! I totally forgot!"; then he gave me a hug. Oh well. Better late than never. Our professor in Psychology got in really late; the rule there is that if the professor doesn't show up after 30mins. (for MWF classes), the class president must go to the Dean's office and ask if the professor is absent, if he/she is, then we have a whole free period to ourselves. But if its a one hour and 30-min. class and the professor doesn't show up after 45mins., we do the same thing. It was already well past 45mins. when she came in. Darn it. It was raining when we got out so I had to run and jump all he way to the dorm. I got a little wet but I didn't mind.Talked to Romeo again. I told him that I was going to give him one last chance. If he messes up again, it will be totally over. Then I asked him what he planned to do now that he got his chance; he said he wanted to make up for lost time and for the mistake he did a few months ago. In other words, he wanted us to get back together. I thought really hard about that so I kept him talking while I was thinking; I asked him what about his girlfriend, he said he already broke up with her. I asked about the "distance thing", he said that he'll make it work anyway. I kept on stalling until I ran out of stuff to say; until finally, all I could say was, "YES". This time, I'm not going to take our relationship seriously. I took it too seriuosly before so that's why I got really hurt. But if I take it lightly, I won't get as hurt as before. I know I'm being stupid for agreeing to be his girlfriend again, but hey, I'm a hopeless romantic. Whatever the outcome, it'll be my fault and I won't spend my time wallowing in self-pity when we break up again. I've become stronger since we broke up so I know that I won't get broken that easily. When it comes, I'm ready for it. This is my problem and no one else's. So if you have anything negative or positive to say about this, please let me know; I could use a little laughter right now
WEDNESDAY, JULY 11 - I bought a new scientfic calculator becuase my old one was causing me a lot of trouble. Then me and Janel ate in Jollibee (yes, again
) before going to school. After class, Mau accompanied me to the Health Service because I wasn't feeling very well; the results are okay, nothing serious. Mau was even making his own diagnosis while I described to him what I was feeling; surprisngly what he said and the doctor who checked on me said were not that far apart. We went back to the AB building after that and went to the Guidance Office where Meg and Sarah were taking their personality tests. We had a lot of fun while talking to Ma'am Shake. We even made a new friend from the other section named Jo. She joined us when we went to Jollibee (again!) after we left the Guidance Office; and you know what? WE stayed there until almost 7 in the evening! We arrived there around past 4 and left really late. WE were having so much fun! We even stalked Sir Olivar. I'll put up the link at the end of the post. We found out from Jo that the first years now wrote a hate letter to Professor Dalangin (our professor in History and Geography last school year and one of my favorite professors there); how dare they! When I find out who did that I am gonna wring that person's filthy little neck and choke the life out of him. Nobody, and I mean NOBODY has the right to talk crap about Sir Dalangin. And if they drae to do it again, they won't just be hearing from me, but from my other classmates as well.THURSDAY, JULY 12 - I attended my first meeting on THE FOCUS. It's the official newsletter of Behavioral Science and they recruited me to be one of their staffers. I had a great time; we were laughing and joking around while some were actually doing some of the real work. I wasn't really familiar with the stuff that they were saying so I just stayed out of it. After that me and Meg ate in San Mig beofre heading off to the library. We ran into Sarah and Mau and Sarah joined us becuase Mau had a class to attend. We went to the Filipiniana section because Sarah had to research for her report in Rizal. Our classmate, Mark Anido, was there reviewing for our recitation in Natural Science. I asked him if he could accompany me in looking for the book that had everything we needed to know that was sure to come up in our recitation. So we went down two floors to the Science and Technology section but the book wasn't there so I had to look for another one. I had it xeroxed then I read it. We went down for lunch when it was already 12pm. Classes, laughtrip in Philo and stuff. And Sir Olivar made me cry. All becuase of one darn question. I was so pressured to answer it but I really had no idea what he was talking about. I looked at my classmates and I could see that they didn't understand what he was saying either. I guess I couldn't take it so I let it all out through my tears. I'll do better next time even if I have to read every single book in the library. Just wait, Sir Olivar. You think you know everything just becuase your a professor, but just you wait...
At least one good thing happened; we didn't have Psychology because our professor was absent. As for History, I am so not liking it. Mainly becuase of the professor. She talks to us as if we're a bunch of kids! And everytime she talks, she sticks her tongue out. That kind of stuff distracts me from the lesson! Urgh! I want Professor Dalangin!
And finally, today. I'm in Dagupan right now. I'm gonna watch Harry Potter with Kathleen adn the other seniors in the morning. I can't wait! I hope its good. I've been getting mixed reviews about it so I'll just have to wait and see
FOR PICTURES, CLICK HERE -- http://lauredilian.multiply.com/photos/album/48
All for now!
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