Sunday, December 02, 2007
@ 9:16 PM
LSS OF THE DAY: "LA VIE BOHEME"
From: RENT [Movie/Musical]
Uh-oh. It's baaaaaaaaaaack
. I missed it, you know
I am so annoyed with myself right now; why? Because everytime I hear a date (like, September 19, 2007 or October 3, 2007) the first thing that comes to my mind is: "Romeo and I were still together that time" or "Romeo and I were already broken up at that time". And I think them as if it were the most natural reaction, like a reflex; I mentally scold myself for even thinking such things but I can't stop doing it. Sure, I'm doing better now but I can't help but feel like my heart doesn't want to let go of him no matter how hard I try. I try to avoid looking at our pictures or reminisce on the times we spent together and all that crap but nothing's working.
I got a text message from one of my friends yesterday and I felt like laughing and crying at the same time; the message said:
"Wizard of Oz to Tin Man: So you want a heart? You don't know how lucky you are not to have one"
Call me pathetic for getting so worked up about a single message, I don't care. I'm only human after all.
Sometimes I wish that I never agreed when he asked for another chance; maybe things would have been different. Maybe things would have been easier for me. And sometimes, though I hate to think it, I don't think he really loved me. If he did, well, then maybe--just maybe--we'd still be happy.
But no; LIFE had to get in the way.
*sigh* Oh well. I wish that there's still hope for this broken heart of mine. How I long for the day when someone will pick up the pieces for me and help me nurse it back together. Another disappointment like that would leave me crippled for life
Okay, enough of the drama *wipes away last tear*
I read something on Multiply today that made me very happy; I'll write it here so I hope whoever wrote it doesn't mind
:kasi ganito,.. yesterday i was reading all the blog entries of lui, (i really dont know her, just here in multiply, through her pix, and we're of the same educational system, but she's in manila, and am in baguio)i really love the one she included in her blog. the story of a gurl and a boy.,,hahhaha wala lang trip ko lang..
kanina when i was agen visiting her blog site(kasi ung blogsite niya lagi ko talagang binibisita:idol) i was really looking for that blog, unfortunately it was lost..huhuhu
yah, there's no more man like that man in the story.
(to give u the background of the story)hahahah ang haba..basta ung thought ganito:
may boy at gurl. naguusap sila sa fon.. lovers sila. then akala ng gurl may work cia.. may date sila. susunduin si gurl ni boy ng 7(ata). tapos un. nasundo na si gurl.. may surprise cia kay gurl then blind fold thing.. pumunta sila sa parang lover's lane ung nakikita ung view tapos lumuhod luhod..hahah(corny pero cool).. sabi ni gurl un daw ung lugar kung saan niya sinagot si boy...tapos sabi ni boy yah that's true...pero nga ung tanong.. "will u marry me"..hahahahahhanaiyak daw kunwari si gurl..(ang sayasaya).. tapos un..
sabi ni lui wala na daw ganung lalaki ngaun....may malaking X ung pix nila ng boyfriend niya..hhhuuhuhuhuh.....
yah..i agree with LUI's idea..there's no man like the man in the story.. if there wud someone hu'll do the same for me then THAT WUD BE A MIRACLE
Well, would you look at that? Someone's actually reading my blog! I was so touched
. I gave her my new URL as a token of my appreciation. It just goes to show that even though we're from different places, there are other ways to touch each other's lives
I'll be going back to Manila in a few hours. Grr
I guess this will be it for now. I"m not feeling very inspired to write today so I hope you guys'll cut me some slack
Catch yah later, sweetums
Labels: friends, heartbreak, relapse, RENT, school