I have just been tagged by Lala. Here's a pic of my workplace, as promised:)





It's a liitle messy. The books on the first shelf (above the brown thingys) were my books from last school year. I can't believe how many there are. Hehehehe:)

Hay. I'm tired of guys asking if they could court me. Just today, I turned down five guys. I'm feeling kinda sorry for them, but I really don't want to get into another relationship right now.

It's bad enough that my previous boyfriend is still "feeling that we're together even though we're not anymore", and now these guys are insisting that they would be "better" than him. I told them all that they are all better off as my friends, nothing more, nothing less. A blow to their ego, but what the hell, they can't change the way I feel about them.

I need more time to examine myself, if I'm really ready to commit myself to another guy. As of now, I'm still on uneven ground; I'm still not sure on where I stand on this matter. My experience from my last relationship is casting doubts on what I used to think were the "right things".

Good thing I still have something that distracts me from all unnecessary thoughts. If I didn't have ny distractions, then God knows what state I could be in right now.

But, who knows? I'm happy right now and I don't want anything to make me feel blue all over again. I wouldn't care if I stay single all my life, as long as I don't turn into one of my former professors (classmates from 1BES1, you know who she is), then I'm good:) I'm single, happy and free. What more could I wish for?:) I'm moving on, and that's that!:)

So, I'm saying goodbye to depression and self-pity and hello to sunshine and self-confidence:) I recover pretty quickly; that's what I like about myself:)

I'm really in love with the song "I Stand Alone"; that's why I made it the title of my blog:) My favorite stanzas are:

Like every tree stands on its own

Reaching for the sky I stand alone.

I share my world with no one else.

All by myself I stand alone.

I've seen your world with these very eyes

Don't come any closer, don't even try

I've felt all the pain and heard all the lies

But in my world there's no compromise.

The best:)

I PASSED ALL MY SUBJECTS! EVEN IN LOGIC AND PGC! YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! THANKS TO MIKO BALUYOT FOR CHECKING THE UST SITE FOR ME!:)

Alrightie, that's all for now. It's kinda late.

Bye y'all!:)

LSS OF THE DAY: "I STAND ALONE" (MULTI-LANGUAGE) FROM THE MOVIE, "QUEST FOR CAMELOT"

I love this song. I love the English version, (Barry White's voice is so dreamy) but then when I saw the video of that one on YouTube, and listened to it of course, I fell in love with all the languages. Various singers sang it in Portuguese, English, Hebrew, Swedish, Dutch, Spanish, French, Icelandic, German, Swedish and Italian. All were great, but I wasn't feeling the Spanish version.

I watched the graduation of the seniors yesterday. Seeing them climb up the stage and recieve their medals and certificates reminded me of my graduation last year. Theirs was in the morning; ours last year was in the late afternoon until early evening. It was pretty tiring, but we still had fun. I wore heels that were 4 inches high, a BIG mistake. I remember that I had to coach my Mom and Dad on their positions on climbing the stage; Mom on my right, Dad on my left. My sister got a good laugh when I told her; it's not everyday that I get to boss my parents around and I took advantage of that. Hehehe:) And I had to divide my medals between them so they could put them around my neck. The one thing that I'll never forget about that day was that we used one of my compositions as one of the graduation songs. I'm really proud of that. Hay. Oh well. That's over.

Their graduation was fun. I had fun watching them. When it was over, I talked to all of my friends and congratulated them. I was pretty clost to all of them, despite the one-year age gap. While I was talking to them, I kept on thinking to myself, "Was this the person I met in grade school?". I can't believe how fast time flies. I'm really proud of them for making it that far. And they know that we're always here for them when they need help. I really love them all:) Their all my brothers and sisters and I couldn't be more proud of them:)

I uploaded the pictures from yesterday. Their in my Multipy. http://lauredilian.multiply.com

I wonder what I'm gonna do today. Watch T.V., eat, sleep, text, read. That's basically my agenda for the whole summer. I'm planning to go to the gym for maybe 3 times a week, but I still have to ask Mom. My arms are getting bigger. Darnit.

I'll try to update tonight. That is, if my Dad doesn't hog the computer like he did last night.

'Til here y'all:)

LSS OF THE DAY: "I MADE IT THROUGH THE RAIN" BY CARRIE UNDERWOOD AND THE AMERICAN IDOL SEASON 5 FINALISTS

I'm soooo hooked on American Idol. Speaking of which, what was up with Sanjaya's hair?! A mohawk?! Oh, dear lord.

I took these pictures from the T.V. Pretty obvious, huh? Chris Sligh got kicked off. Too bad. I sorta liked him.

I watched the movie 300 with my sister this afternoon. One word: WOW. It was great! The fight scenes were intense, the actors were all buffed up and the drama that was wrapped around the action was superb. Gerard Butler played Leonidas, the king of Sparta; I first discovered him in Tomb Raider part 2, then in the film adaptation of Phantom of the Opera. I fell in love with him then, and I fell even deeper while I was watching the movie; if that's even possible. So many handsome men. So many tall and macho men. I remember one of my friends saying that he turned gay while watching the movie because of all the hot bodies that flashed on screen. And honestly, if I were him, I'd probably be the same. Just saying:) Hehehehe:) Xerxes, the king of Persia, who wanted to conquer the Greeks, was reall, really weird. Lots of piercings and stuff. It was a little unnerving to see him that way. It just freaked the hell out of me.

The movie was based on history; maybe that was what made me so keen on watching it. I love history. I love reading about time long past, especially when they talk about battles and stuff. I would browse through my notes and books on World History and I never tire of reading the same names and places over and over again.

My sister slept through most of the movie. I don't know how she did it, but she just did it. Amazing. Hehehehe:)

I got a few nice lines from the movie. There was this one scene where all of them were already dying, and then one of the soldiers just reaches out for Leonidas' hands and says:

"It is an honor to die by your side, my king".

Then Leonidas says, "And it is an honor to have lived in yours".

At this point, I was already crying. It was really sad; watching all those brave men die in battle, fighting for their freedom. Only 300 Spratans remained to fight with the Persians because the Achadians left them. They were probably outnumbered by 10 to 1 and yet they fought on. They could have held on for a longer period of time, if only that darn hunchback didn't betray them. Oh well.

I am so gonna watch it again when it comes out on DVD.

Me likie:)

Someone keeps on insisting that I call him "my husband" and I should be known as "his wife". It's cute, but I told him not to take it too seriously. It's all in the name of fun. He even went as far as to ask me to elope with him. Dude, I am not your girlfriend. In your dreams:)

I've been bored like hell. Got nothing better to do. I'm considering on getting a summer job again. But, I'm still thinking about it.

Well, that's all for today, folks.

'Til next time!:)

LSS OF THE DAY: "WASTED" BY CARRIE UNDERWOOD

Love her:)

I changed my URL so I could escape Trinni. I've had enough of her. Until now she won't stop bothering me. Right now I'm thinking about changing my e-mail add and cell phone number. She's been giving me a REALLY BIG headache these past few days since she said that she has "nothing better to do". Fuck her.

I watched the Recognition day in Dominican this morning. It was great to see my friends again. I missed them a lot. And of course, my trip to DS wouldn't be complete if I didn't have a chat with Sister Althea. I really missed her.

A REALLY, REALLY, REALLY BIG THANK YOU TO KATHLEEN ROSE RAYOS. Dude! Thanks for the CD and the letter. Your letter made me cry, seriously. I was really touched:) Thank you again:) Love you too, girl!:)

It was fun seeing Bano, Tina and Marge again. And Bano kept on teasing me because of the darn basketball game that Tina had. It's kinda hard to explain, so let's just say that we acted like kids during the whole program with Bano shouting a few curses every five minutes or so, while I slap his arm or tell him to shut up. That was fun:)

KICK SANJAYA OFF AMERICAN IDOL!!!!!!

I have a really bad headache right now. Probably because of the heat. IT'S SO DARN HOT!

Tomorrow, I'm gonna watch the graduation of the sixth graders and then on Friday, the graduation of the Seniors. Oh this is gonna be fun!:)

'Til next time y'all!:)

TESTING.

NEW URL. NEW LAYOUT.

I'M BORED.

WILL UPDATE TONIGHT.

NO LSS. I'M TOO PISSED.

I'm tired. Frickin' tired. Physically, mentally and emotionally. I want to rest. But this certain issue came up and I just can't ignore it. So, here goes...

A LOT OF PEOPLE GAVE NEGATIVE RESPONSES TO MY POST BEFORE THIS ONE. Look, I really didn't want to mention names, but now I'M FORCED TO because of the people who reacted. There were probably 6 or 7 of them.

HERE'S THE TRUE STORY. SO LISTEN UP ALL YOU MUTHAFUCKAS.

I have a friend, by the name of CHRISTIAN PAUL VILLANUEVA, and he was my best friend from pre-school until now. Even though I transferred schools, he still calls me at home and we text each other from time to time. He also studies in UST but he's taking up Engineering. When the second semester started, he started avoiding me. I really wondered at his sudden change. Later, he explained to me that it wasn't intentional. He told me that our former classmate from our old school, a MS. TRINNI VELASCO, was hanging out with him; she's also studying in UST. And was TRYING TO TEAR US APART BECAUSE SHE CLAIMS THAT WE WERE GETTING "TOO CLOSE". TOO CLOSE?! TOO CLOSE?! TOO CLOSE MY ASS! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?! I'VE KNOWN HIM LONGER THAN YOU HAVE! YOU WERE ONLY OUR CLASSMATE IN SECOND GRADE! YOU EVEN TRANSFERRED IN THIRD GRADE, LIKE ME! AND YOU ONLY CAME BACK WHEN WE WERE IN THIRD YEAR! EVEN THOUGH I WASN'T THERE ANYMORE, MY FRIENDSHIP WITH CHRISTIAN WAS FAR STRONGER THAN YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH HIM!

And here's the part that really PISSED ME OFF. Everytime I see her, she keeps on showing me pictures of them together. Then she forwards the messages that Christian sends her; and she forwards the e-mails that Christian sends her, TO ME. Then she says,
“OH MY, LUI. TOO BAD YOU WEREN’T THERE THERE DAY WE TOOK THIS PICTURE. I REALLY WISH YOU COULD HAVE BEEN THERE. OR, THEN AGAIN, MAYBE NOT”,

OR, “HEY LUI. HERE’S THE MESSAGE CHRIS SENT ME THREE MNUTES AGO. DOES HE SAY THE SAME THING YOU? HMMM. NAH. I DIN’T THINK SO. WHY WOULD HE WASTE YOUR TIME ON YOU ANYWAY?”,

OR, “OH LUI! YOU KNOW WHAT? ME AND CHRISTIAN WENT TO THIS CUTE CAFÉ THE OTHER DAY. HE WANTED TO TELL YOU BUT I THOUGHT THAT IT WOULDN’T BE A HAPPY TRIP. THREE’S A CROWD, YOU KNOW”. AND A WHOLE LOT MORE.

And you know what? SHE'S STILL DOING IT. Even though I avoid her text messages, I erase all her e-mails, I ignore her calls and just walk right by her when I pass her on campus, SHE WON'T STOP. I don't think she even knows that what she's saying is already hurting me. CHRISTIAN IS MY FRIEND TOO, YOU KNOW.

The reason why I'm saying all this now, is because a lot of people reacted to what I first said. I'm sorry if you guys think that it might be meant for you. Trinni knows that I have a blog, and she reads it every chance she gets. SHE EVEN TOLD ME THAT SHE READ MY LAST POST. And you know what she said? “OH DEAR, LUI. I HOPE YOU WEREN’T REFERRING TO ME”. Wow. So it took you that long to finally realize what I’m talking about? Dude, how slow can you get? I’m surprised that that teeny-tiny brain of yours could process such complicated information. I applaud you for that. NOT! Well, surprise, surprise! You got it right! We talked about it, but she was indifferent to it. As always, she didn't give a damn. Fine. If that's the way she wants it.

I really wish you guys could have asked me about it first before you jumped to conclusions. I honestly did not want to mention names, but you people forced me to do it. Should I mention the names of the people who reacted? As much as I'm tempted to, I don't want to. I don't want to cause any more trouble. None of this would have happened if you guys ASKED ME IF YOU WERE THE ONE I WAS REFERRING TO. I COULD HAVE EXPLAINED EVERYTHING TO YOU BECAUSE I WAS TIRED WHEN I MADE THAT POST SO I DIDN'T ELABORATE. IF YOU THINK THAT BY ANY CHANCE THAT I'M REFERRING TO YOU, PLEASE ASK ME FIRST AND I'LL TELL YOU STRAIGHT UP. YOU PEOPLE KNOW HOW STRAIGHT-FORWARD I AM. AND YOU PEOPLE CLAIM TO BE MY "FRIENDS". WHATEVER.

TRINNI, I REALLY HOPE YOU'RE READING THIS. YOU CAN BLAB TO CHRISTIAN ABOUT THIS ALL YOU WANT. I'M PRETTY SURE THAT HE KNOWS WHAT'S GOING ON. HE'S NOT BLIND. LIKE YOU. If you want to be his friend, fine. I'm okay with that. But you don't have to take him away from me. Stop clinging to him. It's getting annoying. AND CHRISTIAN HAS A GIRLFRIEND! AND SHE'S COMPLAINING THAT YOU'RE ALSO TRYING TO TEAR THEM APART! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?! STOP IT!

As for the people who reacted, some already asked for forgiveness, and some are just too proud to admit that they were wrong. I learned about their reactions through their blogs, their status in YM and their bulletins in Friendster. To those who are too proud to admit that they were wrong, there's the story. Take it or leave it. I'll only forgive you, when you ask for it. That is, IF you ask for it. If you won't, then, that's up to you.

LSS OF THE DAY: "IF I NEVER YOU" BY MEL GIBSON AND JUDY KHUN

From the Disney movie, "Pocahontas", one of my all-time favorites. Hey, you're talking to a Disney-baby here:) I didn't know that Mel Gibson could sing. He's pretty good. Hehehehe:)



I'm gonna miss my classmates and room mates in the dorm:'( I won't be going back to Sta. Catalina next school year. I'm still looking for a dorm. Lord, help me.

There's something I don't understand. There's this person, who's my friend. But then, everytime I hear that she's with some guy, (who I also know) when I see them together and when I see pictures of them together, I get this feeling at the pit of my stomach. Like this burning sensation that threatens to eat up my innards. Sometimes I get this unwanted urge to kill someone, preferably, the girl. Do I hate her? Am I jealous? No. That can't be. Can it? But, she's my friend. And he's my friend too; well, in a way, he's my friend. I don't know! I'm so confused!

Why am I even feeling this way? I'm just making myself feel more depressed than I already am. I can't do this anymore. I have to do something, before I go insane.

I know some of you are thinking, what's the big deal? I wish I could tell you. But. I can't. It's too complicated. And someone might blab if that person reads this.

I have to go. I have to go to City Hall to pay for Tita Marissa's taxes. Oh yeah, yesterday, she offered to take some of my stuff to Fairview (where she lives) so I won't have to bring all of them with me to Dagupan. She is heaven sent! I could only imagine what I'd look like if I brought my mattress and electric fan with me on the bus. What a sight. Hehehehe:) After we loaded my stuff on her pick-up, we went to Maui's (her daughter) condo in Gillmore. Pretty swanky. Had lunch there, then she took me to the bus station. Again, she is heaven-sent! Even if I left a lot of my stuff with her, I still had four big bags to carry. When I mean big, I mean BIG. So she took me to the bus station and let some guy load my stuff on the bus. Thank you Tita Marissa and Kuya Abner!:)

Bye y'all!:)

LSS OF THE DAY: "BROKEN" BY SEETHER AND AMY LEE

Perfect song for a lousy day.

This hasn't been a good day for all of us. Sorry if I ramble. it's just too much.

First up, our quiz in Logic. Our PRE-FINALS in Logic. Oh my poor brain. I was expecting blood to drip from my nose and ears. Everything was blurry as soon as I passed my paper. I even had to squint because I wasn't sure if it was Cholo beside me or a big fleshy watermelon. I'm serious. It was THAT bad.

Next, during Geography, our classmates were making a lot of noise. It's always been like that and it's downright annoying. I just wannna scream at the others to shut the fuck up because there are some people who actually want to learn, unlike them! They think that they know everything when they really don't. When the results of the quizes come out, their usually the ones who get the lowest scores. Serves them right. And today, Caloy (Professor Dalangin) got so pissed at us that he just stopped discussing; and he said that he won't discuss any of the remaining topics. AND THEY'RE INCLUDED IN THE FINALS. Great. Just great. I was really, really tempted to rip my hair off and storm out of the classroom. And there are some people who have the nerve to tell others to keep quiet when their the ones starting all the noise. Asses. Fuck them. We went to Professor Dalangin after class to say sorry. Even if we weren't the ones who started it, and he knows that we're the ones who listen to him, we still feel bad about it. Like they say, "Damay ang isa, damay ang lahat". He even said that he's gonna ask if he won't handle our section anymore; he really had enough of us. When Meg was apologizing to him, all he said was "We have nothing to talk about". Damn, dude. That hurt. They are ao gonna pay for what they did. Come finals, I hope they all fail. Damn them.

And another thing, our research paper in English was a flop. We have to make a lot of revisions. And I mean A LOT. And here's another thing, one of our group mates, as much as I don't want to mention his name, I've just about had it with him. MARK ABISADO. MARK ANTHONY ABISADO. He keeps on claiming that he knows "nothing" about what we're doing; when if fact he also helped in planning the stuff that we're supposed to submit! And what's with all the "I wish you could have told me" crap? Dude, we told you everything! I swear, if you say that again on Wednesday, I am going to let out a string of curses that will make you so dizzy that you wanna puke. Iris and Meg offered to be your translators in case that slow brain of yours can't process what I'm saying. Just one more, Mark. Don't make us hate you even more. We've been patient with you. But now you're just going too far. Just one more.

There was a shouting match between Gibson and the rest of my classmates. That was interesting. It's always fun to watch other people beat him. He's just so uncontrollabe. Meg did a great job. GO MEG! She called him "tanga", "bakla", "epal" and stuff like that. And he even sneered at her. Now that really pissed me off. And it was all because of that darn electric fan. The classroom was already bone-chillingly cold and yet he says that it's hot. Well, I understand his side; coz with all that fat stored inside of him there's no way that any of the cold could penetrate his skin. Baboy. Pig. Fucking pig. Roast yourself.

Waki informed us that our incoming president of the AB student council Kuya J.C. (yes, the guy I was crushing on. Well, until now actually), is on probation because he was complaining about the illegal raising of tuition fees in the school. He's on probation for 100 days. That's so unfair! We have our right to speak out! And here's another thing, (damn, bad news just keep coming and coming, huh?) our irregular student in Geography, Kuya Lucan, is suspended from school until he cuts his hair. Since there's a "no long hair for guys" policy in the school, all the guys are forced to cut their hair. But not Kuya Lucan. He let his hair grow and he even styled it like those of the guys in Jamaica. Now he's suspended. He's going to miss the Finals. And he has to enroll as an irregular student, again. STOP CAMPUS REPRESSION!

A really bad start to the week. It's pissing me off. I want everything to end. Can anybody kill me now, please? I've had enough.

By the way, I forgot to mention that it was Patricia (my sister) who lent me the book, "The 500 People You Meet In Hell".

LSS OF THE DAY: "IF MY HEART HAD WINGS" BY FAITH HILL

American Idol, dude. Hehehehe!:)

I just finished reading "THE 500 PEOPLE YOU MEET IN HELL" by Jessica Zafra. I found a lot of stuff that were pretty interesting. See if you like them:)

*THE FIERY PIT OF PEOPLE YOU ACTUALLY KNOW

• The teacher who said you would amount to anything

-- For the sake of argument let us assume that she was right and you did turn out to be a worthless, pathetic loser. She would still be a bitch, not to mention an incompetent teacher. Teachers aren’t just supposed to drill lessons into your skull, they’re supposed to inspire you to make something of yourself. No matter how crummy the raw material. It’s part of their job description, and the fact that teachers are horrendously underpaid, overworked, and unappreciated is beside the point. If you’re a loser, it’s partly her fault.
For being a rotten teacher, she is doomed to write “I was an incompetent teacher who ruined the lives of my students” 100 times on the blackboard, and then erase everything and start all over again. For all eternity. With no bathroom breaks.

• The music teacher who told you that if you can't sing well, don't sing at all

-- You'll run into her there, in a bare, padded room, strapped to a chair that administers periodic electric jolts to prevent her from losing consciousness as her ears are assaulted with every Air Supply song ever written.

• The cousin who broke all your toys then ran crying to her mother

-- There is some justice in this world, so this destructive little liar probably grew up friendless. Now in Hell, she is forever eight years old and walking down the endless aisle of the most wonderful, spectacular, supercalifragilistic toy store in the universe. The shelves are lined with every single toy ever invented, and some that haven’t been invented yet. Each time she tries to pick up a toy from a shelf, the toy moves just out of her reach. She can never play with any of these fantastic toys. Occasionally a bunch of 8-year-old kids run into the store and grab toys from the shelves. When she tries to play with them, they break the toys on her head.

• The teacher who ruined math/literature for you

-- His perpetual punishment is to recite from memory the complete value of Pi, down to the last decimal place, or the entire text of James Joyce’s Finnegan’s Wake to a room full of cranky scholars. Every time he makes a mistake, he gets pelted from all corners with balled-up pieces of paper that weigh like boulders. Then he has to start at the very beginning. In the extremely unlikely event that he ever gets to the end of Pi or Finnegan’s Wake, he moves on the next assignment: mathematical proof of Fermat’s Theorem, or Marcel Proust’s In Search of Lost Time in the original French.

• The neighbors who haven’t stopped yowling since they got their karaoke machine.

-- They are condemned to an eternity without sleep, trapped inside a smoky, reeking karaoke bar where the music is so loud it causes their brains to melt and run out of their ears. There they must sing without stopping while they are clubbed and poked with giant microphones by putrid demons requesting “My Way”.

• The rich people across the street who detonate their New Year’s Eve firecrackers on your driveway for fear of accidentally blowing up their environment-raping SUVs

-- They are tied up, then barrels of petroleum are poured down their throats until petroleum gushes out of their noses and ears. Then when they are completely bloated, they are made to lie on the floor while devils jump up and down on their bellies. Meanwhile frisky little imps throw lit firecrackers at them, and if the pyrotechnics get into their mouths they explode.

• The friend of the family who always noted how not pretty you were, and suggested you were adopted

-- Why would an adult take pleasure in making a child feel ugly and freakish, unless he was tormented by the knowledge of his own hideousness? In Hell he is perpetually pregnant. Every three months he gives birth to a monster who looks at him, laughs hysterically, and slithers away.

*THE MAELSTROM OF THE EXES

• The ex who cheated on you then accused you on cheating on him

-- An apple is stuffed in his mouth and he is roasted over hot coals in a fancy retaurant. As he turns on the spit, he can watch you having dinner with Johnny Depp. He shrieks, squirms, and desperately tries to get your attentio, but you do not notice him. Why would you, you're having dinner with Johnny Depp (or Orlando Bloom or whoever you like).

• The user

-- I Hell he becomes useful for a change: he is transformed into a battery. He floats in a vat of acid with wires attached to his body, providing power for Hell's assorted Machines of Eternal Torment, inlcuding The Neverending Celine Dion Jukebox and The Meg Ryan Perpetual Film Festival.

I'll post the others next time. I'm tired. Hehehehe:) Or you could get a copy for yourself. It's a must-read:)

I finally uploaded my pictures!!!!! YIIIPPPPPEEE!! Check 'em out y'all!

http://lauredilian.multiply.com

Take care y'all!:)

LSS OF THE DAY: "DANCE WITH ME" BY DREW SEELEY AND BELINDA; OST: "CHEETAH GIRLS 2"

How did that get in there?! Hehehehe!:)

Let me just complete my "thank you" list before I move on:)

• RONNDALE CASTILLO -- Thank you to Denise Maramba for informing me:)
• FIONA MEGAN DECANO -- Thank you for what you said in your testimonial:) You're right. Life is great:)
• ALL MY CLASSMATES FROM HIGH SCHOOL -- Friends for life:) Thank you for your undying love and support. Especially to MARGAUX MAE RAYOS, JOHN PAUL BRAVO, CHRISTIAN HERMOGINO and JOHN PATRICK ABSALON for making me smile:)
• ALL MY CLASSMATES FROM 1BES1 -- Dudes! We haven't had a serious talk this whole week! All we did was laugh and laugh! Hahahaha:) Thank you guys so much for brightening my day!:)
• DENNIS CALIWAG -- Even though you made fun of me when you found out, you still showed that you cared:) That's my cousin!:)

What a week! We finally passed our project in CWG and our draft in English. We could all relax for a little while. But then on Sunday, it's time to review again. PRE-FINALS IN LOGIC. Dear lord, give us strength. Just coming up with examples is hard enough! Everytime the "Venerable Master" makes us formulate our own examples, our brains are sure to bleed afterwards. You can count on that.

Our professors are going nuts! What the hell is going on?!

During our Psychology class yesterday, Janel, Iris and I made this sort of "chat room"; also known as "write-down-whatever-you-want-to-say-on-a-piece-of-paper-and-let-the-others-read-it-without-the-professor-knowing" thing. Hehehehe:) At first, Janel and I were talking about what names would suit our professor. But then at that moment she told the whole class to keep quiet so I took out a sheet of short bond paper, and began writing. And here is what we talked about: (WARNING: IT'S LONG. And we were reall hungry at that time so mostly it's about food)

LUI: Wait, I have a better name for her! SUPER NEURO! :)
JANEL: Yeah... I like that one better... ! =D
LUI: Do you think she falls under any psychological disorder?
JANEL: Hmm..let's see... Well, she's just palin... PSYCHOTIC. Lolz. I cannot decipher her. She's a way complex living organism... hahaha..
IRIS: Wow...Janel, nosebleed! Ahihi! My opinion... I'm going to be deaf! Waah! Only during her time! Ahihi! Waah! Okal lang na kung SUPER PSYCHO?? Ahihi! Keep quiet old lady!
(I'll just ask for forgiveness later...)
*Bagay pala sakanya yung mga disorders eh!
BWAHAHAHA! =D (big mouth!)
LUI: New name! SUPER NEURO-SCHIZO!!
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! :)
I want donuts! 2 pa tau makakaalis!
Leche! Lintek!
JANEL: Mann... She could pass for a model--a model for the personality disorders!
(Yeah! Just like what Iris said! =D)
*sigh* I wish it's already 2:00.. =(
IRIS: Wohoo! Wala lang! I got a new name for her! SUPER PDG! (Super Personality Disorder Girl!)...Corny...But she's corny?!..Isn't she?!
Naku! Nagpapakita siya ng special powers! Super hero talaga!
Ahahahaha! Palpak! =D Bwahahaha!
LUI: To Janel, you got that right! :)
Iris, corny siya talaga oh! To hell with her!
JANEL: AMEN to that. Lolz. =D weeeeeee!!
IRIS: Pray for her soul! Joke! knock on wood! (sorry! no wood available!)
Naku! Super Saiyan 3 na siya! Wohohoho! ^_^
Kamehame wave!!!
LUI: Uhh.. Can't relate..Hehehehe :)
I'm hungry....and sleepy...again :'(
JANEL: Aww c'mon... one more hour of hardship...tsk..hahahaha!.. Patience, my dearies...
IRIS: Hungry! Hungry! Kill her! Roast her! Kutsunin para pagkain ng mga ipis, flies, crocodiles..uhhmmm..basta! Other pests and carnivorous animals! But I bet even ants won't eat her! Kahit worms iiwasan pa siya! Kahit langaw hindi siya papaligiran! ^_^ Luv yah guys!
LUI: Who would want to eat her?!?! She'll taste bitter!!
JANEL: In fact she does not look palatable to me. disgusting >_<>IRIS: Wahahaha! Rght! Huhuhuhu! Wala talagag papatol sa kanya..Poor lady..! Well, anyway, who the hell cares?!?! No one, right?!?! Bwahahaha!
LUI: I'M SO DARN HUNGRY!
I'M GONNA DAYDREAM WHILE THEY'RE TALKING!
JANEL: Yea. me too. my stomach's grumbling like mad. gosh. 45 mins. left.. ajaaa!
IRIS: Go! Wahahahaha! I'm as hungry as a bear! Damn! I want chicken! CHICKEN! CHICKEN! CHICKEN! (drooling)
LUI: Iris! Chicken again?! You just had that yesterday! Well, WE ALL had it yesterday! You just might turn into one if you keep on eating that!
She's just going to give it now?! Our Pre-Lim grade?! Hell!!!!
JANEL: Yeah, when we're about to take our finals already....damn it...I mean, what's the point on giving it now?
Tsk..too late..or maybe..
IRIS: Yep! Yep! Yep! Hungry! Chicken! Throw her away! Hungry! Chicken! Throw her away!
JANEL: Is that some kind of chant Iris? Lolz.
LUI: Ugajaga-uga-uga-ugajaga-uga-uga!
I'm hungry!
JANEL: Sounds primitive to me Lui. hahaha..
IRIS: Hahaha! Primitive like her! Huhuhaha! That's chant for witches like her! Bwahahaha!!
JANEL: Iris, a witch is even prettier. A LOT PRETTIER than her. thank you. hahaha.
LUI: Oh yeah! Hahahaha!
DARN G-TECH!!!
JANEL: You g-tech's saying, "Replace me now Lui!" =D

(At this time, one of our classmates, the one that we all hate, sits right behind me and falls asleep; and starts SNORING)

IRIS: Yeah right! Ang ingay ni Piggy Boy! Wala lang!
LUI: Awww. I wish I could. But I don't have money!
Ang ingay nga ni Tabachoy!!
JUDITH: Judz is signing in :P
Hiya, girlaloos!:) Care if I join? :P
JANEL: Yo Judz! Yeah...feel free! =D
IRIS: Welcome to the group Judz! Ahihihi! Umm. Masyadong demanding si Super Lady, Psycho Lady..Whatever name pa yan!
Bwahahaha! =D
LUI: Hey Judz! :)
JUDITH: I wonder...may asawa na ba yan? O.o?
LUI: Nope...She's an old maid..I found out from my room mate..she was her student before :)
JANEL: Yeah..no wonder...rest assured..old maid siya! yeahhhh!!
IRIS: Siya ay isang "babaeng napaglipasan na ng panahon"...poor lady..she didn't even experience the feeling of falling in love...sigh...but then again, who cares?!?! Bwahahaha!
JUDITH: Maybe..just maybe..I mean perhaps, rather, she fell in love first but got broken-hearted...and swore never to love again...what say you?
LUI: Hmmm.. That's possible..or she could be a frustrated nun...Given her "fanatic" status...
JANEL: Could be, Judz...Could be =D..magandang assumption yun ha! yeahhboi!
IRIS: Ito siguro quote niys sa buhay.."Thou shall not ever love again"..Wahahaha!
No more boys!
JUDITH: Jaded and bitter...poor thing.
Psychotherapist your face! Ulul!
LUI: Dudes, sometimes I feel sorry for her..
But there are times when I just want to kill her...
JANEL: One word to describe her. WEIRD.
IRIS: NO COMMENT... -_-
JUDITH: Assylum patient, better. You guys eaten already?
JANEL: Nah. I'm veeeery hungry already.

That's it! Hehehehe!:) I told you it was long. But I had fun while we were dong it. Hahahaha!:)

I know you gus are probably saying that we're so mean or something. Trust me, when that particular hag becomes your professor, you'd wish that you dropped the subject instead. I'm serious about that.

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE ADOBE PHOTOSHOP! WAAAAAAAAAA!

I'm still not done uploading pictures!!!!!

Take care y'all!:)

LSS OF THE DAY: "IN THE DARK OF THE NIGHT" BY JEREMY IRONS, OST: "ANASTASIA"

That song gives the the creeps. But still, I like it:)

I would just like to take this opportunity to thank a few people. As follows:

• EDDREX VALENZUELA -- my big brother in UST:) I love you kuya:) Thanks so much for the support. I'll never forget what you told me, and I won't let you down:)
• JANEL MARA ENCINA, MERRIAM GRACE LOCARA, IRIS SANTIAGO, MARK ANTHONY ABISADO -- my best buds! Thanks so much for keeping quiet about it. I really appreciate everything that you've been doing for me:) I LOVE YOU GUYS!!:)
• KATHLEEN ROSE RAYOS -- Dude! Thanks for that talk:) And I know you didn't want to hurt me or anything, but you did the right thing, and I really appreciate that:)
• DENISE HAZELYN MARAMBA -- Like I said through text and in the testimonial I just gave you, thank you so much for talking to me about it last Sunday. It really made me feel a whole lot better:) We can do this!:) Love yah, girl:)
• RONNDALE -- I don't know your last name, sorry! Hehehe!:) Thanks for staying up 'til 3a.m. just to talk to me and calm me down that night. You have no idea how helpful you were. Thanks bud:)
• PEDYSON DE LEON -- Hahahaha!:) Thanks for making me laugh!:)

Well, that's all for now!:)

LSS OF THE DAY: "STARS" BY CALLALILY


I can't believe that I'm actually singing it! Is it the end of the world already?!? Bwahahahaha!:)

Wow dude! I can't believe I'm still sober! We just came back from the ARUBA BAR AND RESTAURANT'coz it was our BEHAVIORAL SCIENCE NIGHT. Yup! You heard me! PARTY!! WAHOOOOOOOO!!:)

But before I get into the "juicy details" let mejust say one thing: earlier today, Romeo and I broke up. He said that he wasn't "feeling our relationship" anymore. So, naturally, I broke down and cried without anyone seeing me, which was a remarkable thing considering I was in Janel's house with Meg and Iris. So when we got to the bar, we first saw Gabs and Mik outside smoking and drinking. Gabs offered me to take a sip from his beer; and I did. Two times, in fact. And after that he kept on ordering more beers for me and I didn't want to refuse coz something inside me was telling me to keep on drinking. And of course, I did. I drank 4 BOTTLES OF SAN MIG LIGHT. And the funny part was, my classmates were actually amused when they saw me so red in the face that I looked like an Indian. I didn't care. I wanted to drown the misery I was feeling. I ignored Romeo's textx and calls while we were at the party. I don't care anymore. I kept on repeating that he should leave me alone, but he wouldn't listen! Stubborn ass! He kept on saying that he will do whatever it takes for us to stay friends. I'm considering on changing my number and I plan not to tell any of his classmates so that we will loose contact for good. That's what I want to happen; but he's making things harder for me. I just want him to leave me alone. That's all I want him to do. To hell with his lame and pathetic excuses. I'm through. He's out of my life and I don't want him back EVER AGAIN.

Only Kuya Eddrex knows this. He suspected that something was wrong the moment I opened my mouth and smelled of beer. He gave me some comforting words and he even gave me a hug to make me feel better. I love you kuya:) You really are the best:)

Once my friends read this, Iris, Meg and Janel, I prefer that we don't talk about it. PLEASE DON'T BRING IT UP ONCE YOU FIND OUT. I BEG OF YOU. I DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER ANYTHING.

I bombarded my friends with text messages about how drunk I was. And judging from the way they reacted, they were worried sick about me. I know that what I did was wrong, but that was the only way I could think of forgetting everything. Margaux sent me this really long text that got me feeling really guilty. I feel bad for making them worry and I'm really sorry about that. I'll apologize as soon as I wake up later. They deserve it. After all the stuff we've been through together, that was the least I could do.

So, about the party, dude, it was so much fun! We got there around quarter to seven and there were only a very few people there. We took our seats near the front so we could see the stage better. Everyone was all dressed-up but me and the gang just wore simple shirts and jeans. Well, except for Janel who was the most formal of us all. There was some sort of raffe and modeling thing going on; Gabs was our model, and some girl from 1BES2. They looked so cute! After that the bands started to play; we were dancing all night! By the way, I'll be uploading the pictures on my Multiply and see for yourself. Dude, I was so red in the face from the beer I drank.You guys will be very surprised:)

My head hurts like hell. Maybe I shouldn't have let Gabs talk me into drinking that much. But then again, it was a new experience for me so it's alright:)

Check out my Multiply dudes and dudettes! Ugh! That didn't sound very well, did it? http://lauredilian.multiply.com

Okay. I'm off! We still have to wake up very early. Although I doubt if I'll be able to sleep. Oh well. I'll try. I'm gonna have a major hang-over in the morning.

By the way, I'm in Janel's house right now. Meg and I are sleeping over. Hehehehe!:)

Dear lord, help me.