Tuesday, October 17, 2006
The pain...the sweet pain...I feel it...I feel the need to look for it...To look for the one thing that will truly make me happy...The one thing that I press against my skin so my blood can flow freely...I need it...I need...MY KNIFE...
But I must not do it...I musn't!...I'm going insane!...Why am I like this?...Is it because of a person?..An event?...A thing?...Honestly, I don't even know...I don't know what triggered my "suicidal-alter-ego"...I need to find out what made me this way...I swore that I would never look for it; that I would never seek it out even when I desperately need it...Of all the times for my "other side" to work up, why now?...I need to put a stop this...
This must end...NOW...